[If he tries to face it head on what will happen? The panic might build up again. He'll make it worse and everything will break.]
I can try.
[He can try to talk to Dave. He can try not to slip down into the well again.]
There's something wildly poetic about the parallelism. Like, this is some prime cliche character study shit. One brother sinks deeper and deeper into himself, and the other floats away.
We can do whatever you want? [ he would say "talk about the options" but dirk isn't sure he can and dave won't go against that even distant as he feels right now. ] I still don't have any plans. I could probably do laundry or somethin' if you want to fuck off.
You can't. [ like. he can't dissociate more probably, so? mostly dave just feels numb. ] We can do whatever you want 'till you hit play if you ever do, then? Movies or the DDR machine or whatever else.
[Dirk mentally searches through films. LotR is too much of a commitment. Harry Potter features abuse and child soldiers. Stiller and Wilson films are too important to risk hurting like this. They did Spy Kids movies recently.]
We could do some Asylum Disaster films. [Same company as Sharknado. It should end up pretty entertaining?]
Sure. [He makes a decision not to hug Dave. It feels... wrong, to do it when Dave is like this. It feels like taking advantage. So he will just head upstairs and set things up for watching. He grabs the archive of all the other Asylum films they have to pull down in case they decide they want to watch more.]
[ snacks are for the record fruit slices and popcorn and juice. when dave comes up he arranges them in the usual fashion on the table and takes his usual seat, sinking back into the couch and crossing one leg over the other knee. ]
[Dirk flops down; unlike Dave, he falls less into regularity than into a cross-legged pose, with a pillow dragged into his lap to hug and rest his chin against.] Same reason I minimized my watching of other films in this style. I do not find them super funny alone. I've gained a new appreciation for them since we started watching them together.
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Okay.
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[ an observation rather than an accusation. ]
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[If he tries to face it head on what will happen? The panic might build up again. He'll make it worse and everything will break.]
I can try.
[He can try to talk to Dave. He can try not to slip down into the well again.]
There's something wildly poetic about the parallelism. Like, this is some prime cliche character study shit. One brother sinks deeper and deeper into himself, and the other floats away.
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[ but after putting the dishes in the sink dave will at least turn to listen. ]
And I'm not sure about the parallelism. Probably they're two different sides of the same thing moreso than exact opposites.
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[ it's difficult to examine what he's doing as he's doing it. ]
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[ as in, if dirk doesn't want to stick around. ]
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[ dirk hit pause. dave...kind of did, too, in a way. ]
It probably won't do much either way. Not sure. You helped once or twice.
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[They can probably both relax at least a little watching movies.]
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[ movies are an easy way to zone out? last time they helped but dave isn't too. worried about that. ]
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We could do some Asylum Disaster films. [Same company as Sharknado. It should end up pretty entertaining?]
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[ it's the first one to come to mind. ]
That was gonna come out, like, a month after the game shit, so I never saw it.
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[It sounds terrible but in a good way.]
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[ shark or octopus. who are you feeling the team spirit for, dirk. ]
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[ not because he's hungry just out of habitual feeling that dirk should eat stuff, why this ]
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Why've you never seen this?
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[ movie, he means. ]
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[There's too much sentimental value mixed up in SBAHJ. Only Dave can get more of that affection out of him.]
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