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[parodeity]

Yeah.

[ a half-smile so dave doesn't do something else, like frown or break down or something idiotic. ]

I don't know what I meant, really, don't worry about it. You know I kinda say a bunch of bullshit that means nothin' literally all the time when I lose the plot.

[splinten]

I know it's how you hide all the things you say that mean everything.

[Dirk doesn't look away. He has Dave. He doesn't want more.]

[parodeity]

Not always. [ ...pretty much always, though? dave's gaze drops to their hands and he seems to be weighing things for a while before: ] You're right. It's enough.

[splinten]

You don't believe me.

[parodeity]

No, I do.

[ it's enough for dirk, and that's good. ]

I believe you don't think of it as there bein' shit you can't have. Like. Life. Aside from the obvious.

[splinten]

The obvious being?

[parodeity]

A childhood? A guardian?

[ the things that would have come part and parcel with either. if it'd been like it was for john or rose at least. ]

Obvious shit that cannot be had. [ stuff he assumes dirk would classify in the same wy he does. Literally Impossible. ]

[splinten]

You mean the stuff that's already in the past. Sure, there's no second chance of any of that. I was thinking in terms of the present and the future.

[For that, all he's lacking is Jane. His head tilts, because he doesn't think Dave will believe him, but it's another thing that's true.]

I don't need my Bro, Dave. I have you.

[parodeity]

That's what I meant, sure. And the concepts that went with that shit.

[ things that don't matter because all of them are out of reach and impossible to grab at this point. not even a time traveler can make them real. ]

I think you're kind of amazin'.

[ unrelated to dirk's statement, but. whatever. ]

[splinten]

[It comes out of nowhere. Dirk stares.]

I hurt you a lot. And fail you, repeatedly, in the same ways, despite tryin' not to. Like I am psychologically incapable of not being a painful experience for you.

[okay now who sucks at accepting things]

[parodeity]

I think you're stronger than me in a lot of ways.

[ and maybe some of that is colored with knowing bro was that. but. ]

You're never the one who fails me, dude.

[splinten]

Citations needed, bro.

[A frown is in his expression. Somehow the words seem strange to him. He doesn't know if it's just because he can't take nice things easily or if there's something happening.]

[parodeity]

Which part are you objectin' to, or is it just a general objection to like both things.

[splinten]

Both. I don't know why you called me amazing, or... where we are, in this conversation.

[The frown deepens. His voice gets quiet.]

Are you drawin' back from me?

[parodeity]

You're doin' really well. Just...in general. You're so much stronger than you like to say you are. You look at the future and the present?

[ these are all things that seem amazing. so why not. ]

I haven't known where we were in this conversation for at least half an hour if not more. I'm not...tryin' to right this second. I think. I don't know?

[splinten]

[Dirk accepts the reply as honest, and he relaxes enough at it.]

I'm not always there. You've seen me fall back to the past. The room think, or times I slipped up. The Strifin' against the dream Reaper was me fallin' back into the past. I backslide too.

[parodeity]

You let go of impossible thoughts quicker than me sometimes.

[ dave shrugs again. ]

And I don't consider the shit that's happened here to be you failin' me.

[splinten]

I hold onto them longer too. Sometimes, I keep my impossible thoughts to myself because I know how much you hate hearing them.

[There's a little shake of his head.]

I assumed you consider it to be you falling me.

[parodeity]

I don't like my impossible thoughts. I don't see a problem with yours.

[ that sounds idiotic but whatever ]

And yeah, generally? Your fuck-ups weren't really that insomuch as they were me not bein' able to handle shit.

[splinten]

Why?

[Why are his okay?]

I have a responsibility to not be a dick to you, Dave. I want to uphold that responsibility.

[parodeity]

In case I can make them not impossible?

[ that sounds stupid still. ]

You're generally not a dick to me, Dirk. Potential real name aside.

[ is this the fucking time ]

[splinten]

[it's always the time to make dumb jokes]

What about me making yours not impossible?

[parodeity]

Uh, no, they're really impossible. Even for a time player.

[splinten]

You said that about bunk beds.

[You know. The ones they sleep in.]

[parodeity]

Ok, but some of them are literally impossible.