yeah but like i guess im neutral even towards that its not like were not weird science children already id have more issues with like cybernetics than i would with biological enhancements ie i dont give a fuck about the small steps weve already take via erasing our humanity to become swimmerhybrids via the shit ursula has loaded into our systems but if anyone tries to put legitimate robotics into me id have a concern
What if they cut you and a fish in half and sewed the opposite parts together? Objection noted. Not that I had any intention of it, but as the resident roboticist it feels like I should make clear my intentions to never do that.
i wouldnt like that because itd hurt the fish werent you already aware id have an objection to that i guess maybe i never said i wouldnt mind like a peg leg or something ig
That was included in reasons to have issues with it. I built one of those. A robotic one so maybe not to your tastes. In retrospect, I might have built a peg leg for the evilest dude in Paradox Space. I'd say it figures that all of this is my fault, but then if I hadn't done that, P. Space would have killed me. Thanks, P. Space.
you built a robo peg leg for lord english i mean that figures thats the stupidest possible anecdote so why wouldnt that be a thing sometimes i think p space is just making bets with itself how absurd it can go
There are some things I'd actually like to talk with you about at some point, since as you can imagine I have not in fact suddenly decided I'm ok with the current state of affairs, and you should probably reassess if you think that's something I'm even capable of. We don't have to address them now, and doing so would probably be a bad idea. But in the debate between whether it was shitty to have this hang over your head or if it was shitty to never bring up that I'm not satisfied, I decided you'd probably at least want to hear me vocalize how I feel about a thing, which is to say I am as I just declared myself to be. On top of that, I've been worried that if I ever bring any of it up, I'll basically be springing it on you, and surprise traps are not a thing I want to do to you. So yeah. That's been percolating for a while. Feel free to breeze past this and go back to how stupid it is that I probably made a robo peg leg for Lord English.
Because I don't know if we know for sure that Callie's brother is Lord English.
Far be it from me to predict the course of one of our conversations, but generally speaking, where we stand with each other and why I don't consider it a positive. Like I said, it isn't something I want to spring on you, so please don't consider this a demand for your time. But on the flipside, it felt like like breaking the rules if I didn't tell you.
I have a sense that might be correct or not. My sense as it stands is one that doesn't provoke satisfaction in me. On the other hand, I don't mind waiting indefinitely if you don't feel even a begrudging willingness to broach that topic. It's a pretty complicated one besides, and for my part I'm genuinely nervous about being able to clearly and accurately express my feelings without any overwhelming blunders of miscommunication.
It does a lot.. Also, sorry. I don't think my heads up went the way I wanted it to. As insane as it will sound, I find it genuinely comforting to be woken up by you.
That isn't really what I meant. My happiness isn't really important to it. My priority is not springing this discussion on you.
Same reason I appreciate having your particular soul in my metaphorical peripheral. It's comforting to be reminded throughout the night that you're around. Smooths over certain anxieties.
im never prepared for conversations about anything regardless of how much time i have to prep if im lucky i dont get physically ill i havent pulled that one on you yet i usually manage to do it beforehand if ive got warning so i guess thats like in the pros column insofar as it can be i dont really like feelings jams about me i guess
lots of constellations mostly i think i made up some names for some of these but i cant remember them it was months ago there were stories and everything but i didnt write them down
[ there's a few minutes of texts half typed, deleted, rewritten, deleted, and just. general dithering. a few minutes turns into probably ten, during which he won't respond to any messages dirk might send if he gets impatient. dirk usually waits, though, for dave to stumble through thoughts.
if he waited this time, what he gets is the result of dozens of attempts before dave whittled it down to a brief truthful sentence: ]
[Dirk sends no messages in that gap. Maybe if a full hour passed, he'd go for it, but he knows Dave. He knows if there are that many interruptions, he is trying to say something true. That is always worth waiting.]
Yeah. I know. Hypothetically speaking, I'd offer to hang out with you in person, or to just keep talkin' with you over text.
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i guess im neutral even towards that
its not like were not weird science children already
id have more issues with like cybernetics
than i would with biological enhancements
ie i dont give a fuck about the small steps weve already take via erasing our humanity
to become swimmerhybrids
via the shit ursula has loaded into our systems
but if anyone tries to put legitimate robotics into me id have a concern
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Objection noted. Not that I had any intention of it, but as the resident roboticist it feels like I should make clear my intentions to never do that.
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werent you already aware id have an objection to that
i guess maybe i never said
i wouldnt mind like a peg leg or something ig
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I built one of those. A robotic one so maybe not to your tastes.
In retrospect, I might have built a peg leg for the evilest dude in Paradox Space.
I'd say it figures that all of this is my fault, but then if I hadn't done that, P. Space would have killed me.
Thanks, P. Space.
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i mean
that figures
thats the stupidest possible anecdote so why wouldnt that be a thing
sometimes i think p space is just making bets with itself how absurd it can go
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There are some things I'd actually like to talk with you about at some point, since as you can imagine I have not in fact suddenly decided I'm ok with the current state of affairs, and you should probably reassess if you think that's something I'm even capable of.
We don't have to address them now, and doing so would probably be a bad idea. But in the debate between whether it was shitty to have this hang over your head or if it was shitty to never bring up that I'm not satisfied, I decided you'd probably at least want to hear me vocalize how I feel about a thing, which is to say I am as I just declared myself to be.
On top of that, I've been worried that if I ever bring any of it up, I'll basically be springing it on you, and surprise traps are not a thing I want to do to you.
So yeah.
That's been percolating for a while.
Feel free to breeze past this and go back to how stupid it is that I probably made a robo peg leg for Lord English.
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what things did you want to talk about
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Far be it from me to predict the course of one of our conversations, but generally speaking, where we stand with each other and why I don't consider it a positive.
Like I said, it isn't something I want to spring on you, so please don't consider this a demand for your time. But on the flipside, it felt like like breaking the rules if I didn't tell you.
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if it sounds like the stupidest option go with yes
my times yours whenever you want it
you dont know where we stand though
?
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I have a sense that might be correct or not. My sense as it stands is one that doesn't provoke satisfaction in me.
On the other hand, I don't mind waiting indefinitely if you don't feel even a begrudging willingness to broach that topic. It's a pretty complicated one besides, and for my part I'm genuinely nervous about being able to clearly and accurately express my feelings without any overwhelming blunders of miscommunication.
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if you want to talk about it we can
will it make you happier
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And genuinely was amused by the dude, right up until he told me that he had in fact actually killed his sister.
There is a reasonable probability it will work in the opposite direction.
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that sucks
thats not super helpful
im sorry i woke you up btw
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Also, sorry. I don't think my heads up went the way I wanted it to.
As insane as it will sound, I find it genuinely comforting to be woken up by you.
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we can not talk about it if it would make you unhappy
that sounds insane
why the hell do you find it comforting
the point of leaving the room was so at least one of us could sleep
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Same reason I appreciate having your particular soul in my metaphorical peripheral. It's comforting to be reminded throughout the night that you're around. Smooths over certain anxieties.
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you cant prepare people for everything
least of all me
oh
hey dirk
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What's up?
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anything
regardless of how much time i have to prep
if im lucky i dont get physically ill
i havent pulled that one on you yet
i usually manage to do it beforehand if ive got warning
so i guess thats like in the pros column
insofar as it can be
i dont really like feelings jams
about me
i guess
lots of constellations mostly
i think i made up some names for some of these
but i cant remember them
it was months ago
there were stories and everything
but i didnt write them down
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That seems like it wasn't what the 'hey Dirk' was for.
Making up constellations is a pretty enjoyable exercise though.
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yeah it wasnt
what i was gonna say was
like
hypothetically speaking
its possible
that maybe
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if he waited this time, what he gets is the result of dozens of attempts before dave whittled it down to a brief truthful sentence: ]
im not fine rn
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Yeah. I know.
Hypothetically speaking, I'd offer to hang out with you in person, or to just keep talkin' with you over text.
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'Ok' genuinely seems like the most accurate word.
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