[There's a pause. Because there are two ways to answer this, and both are true.]
I do think you're competent and not lame. You're a really cool person, in the ways that matter most, and you're really skilled and capable of handling a lot of different situations.
[That's way one.]
But I don't even think my baffled woundedness would have kept me from noticin' what an awkward, clumsy loser you are.
[That is actually an important clarification. It's nice.]
Yeah. Can't say I immediately felt the same, what with being busy wondering why you looked like you'd rather be dead than near me, but it came out later. [He can now joke about how Dave did not want to be near him. This is a good sign.]
It wasn't...super immediate with me, either. Just, like.
[ he shifts on the bed, restless. ]
When I stopped freaking out and started payin' attention.
[ "freaking out" here being just straight up not talking to dirk beyond a few stilted attempts at conversation and then wasting time not talking and trying to not engage with bro. ]
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[ how to put it. ]
Competent and not lame? Which isn't a complaint about how you do see me.
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I do think you're competent and not lame. You're a really cool person, in the ways that matter most, and you're really skilled and capable of handling a lot of different situations.
[That's way one.]
But I don't even think my baffled woundedness would have kept me from noticin' what an awkward, clumsy loser you are.
[And that's the other way]
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[ it's the mildest protest in the history of the universe. and honestly, he likes that dirk can see who he is...usually.
though it never stops flustering him when dirk calls him cool in any way. in that way. ]
That helped. Back then. That you were, too.
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[Since awkwardness isn't robotic terribleness.]
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[ clarifying. ]
It wasn't like it was just that you weren't like Bro. You were like me.
[ it was a weird connection to have when it wasn't one he expected to ever get. ]
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Yeah. Can't say I immediately felt the same, what with being busy wondering why you looked like you'd rather be dead than near me, but it came out later. [He can now joke about how Dave did not want to be near him. This is a good sign.]
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[ he shifts on the bed, restless. ]
When I stopped freaking out and started payin' attention.
[ "freaking out" here being just straight up not talking to dirk beyond a few stilted attempts at conversation and then wasting time not talking and trying to not engage with bro. ]
And then I started noticing.
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[ ............ranted about why he was, uh, not thrilled? ]
.............Had a moment.
[ there we go. ]
You reacted to the shit I was sayin'.
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With my face muscles and everything.
[Dave must have been shocked when Dirk expressed any emotion at all, let alone shock about weapons in fridges.]
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With my expressions.
[ a familiar turn of phrase. familiar minute reactions that bro had never displayed - dave had, though. ]
It was very much a twilight zone special?
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[It makes him happy, in a strange way, to hear Dave say he recognized their expressions were the same.]
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[ unease and a gut-churning desire to be nowhere else until he'd been able to start categorizing dirk as Not Bro. ]
Uh. I think I forgot to ask you if you had any other questions about whatever.
[ may as well offer it while he's tired enough to front less than usual. ]
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[ he'll try, anyway. it'll take him a while? but at least he will Shut Up, so dirk is Free ]