...you specifically, I guess. [The batter gets set aside and he's working on the apple and cinnamon blend instead.] It's not that important for anybody else to know anything like that.
I didn’t know I used to talk about him so much. I guess it makes sense since he was my guardian but I guess it just never really...[A shrug. ] I miss him still. A lot.
Reasons. [ he could go in depth but he won’t unless john pursues that, instead swallowing and trying to figure out how to say what he means without upsetting the metaphorical table. it’s a concern he’s had since last month. ]
Reasons. [Please explain, Dave.] ...I’m sorry sometimes I can be a crappy best friend not sharing the important stuff. But yeah. Likewise. It’s kind of like...I feel more like myself when I’m with you and Rose.
Yes, reasons. [ that’s not asking so he lets himself slide ] You’re not...crappy, I just like when you do. Share things with me you don’t with other people outside of the girls. [ rose and jade, always ] Or being the person you text when you’re bored. Or a million little things. I don’t know.
What reasons? [TELL HIM THINGS. While he folds apple-cinnamon mixture into the batter.] I share a lot of things with you that I don't bother telling anybody else, actually.
...somehow I have a feeling you would not forget regardless. [And yet he still doesn't mind Dave taking pictures apparently.] But just...you know, stuff. Like how I absolutely cannot stand being alone for long periods of time.
Because I hear it in my head all the time like I was born with it. [It's a stupid answer but he thinks Dave might understand.] Because I think about things and it's inspiration I'd be stupid to ignore?
I am pretty sure that is just called art, Dave.[The stove goes on and a frying pan also goes on the stove.] I mean...if you want to take pictures then whatever. You really ought to use your real camera more anyway.
Which one? I’d use the film one more but it’s kinda hard when I don’t really have a darkroom setup now. I can use the school ones but that’s a pain? Maybe I should find a Polaroid camera. But the digital, yeah, maybe. Dirk made the one I’m usin’ now. So I haven’t, as much, lately.
Polaroids would be pretty cool. You could string them up on your side of the room and stuff. [But ah. That explains that.] What about just borrowing one of the darkrooms on campus? You could probably sweettalk somebody in the arts department.
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...okay so maybe it came up and I did not want to talk about it. Things change. Is that better?
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[ he lets go, anyway, and it’s not exactly what he wants to ask, but. ]
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With everyone, or with me specifically?
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... [ ........ ] You used to talk about him a lot. Like you’ve started doin’ recently.
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...I assume that's because I used to be close to him back there, too? If I had to guess.
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I already told you that one. [ or more properly he’d said that john’s dad would have done anything for him. ]
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I just missed it.
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[ thanks dave. what he actually does is pet mewpac, though. ]
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[The thing is that Dave could if he really wanted to.]
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I meant, I missed bein’ your best friend.
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I don’t want to forget these moments.
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[ it’s that. that impulse. ]
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[He'll just start making pancakes at this point.]
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