Okay, but you didn't know you met me until September, when you met your weird new roomie and we mean both, god.
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Look, just - why don't you ever take any of my outs? Do I not give you enough? I know you've done shit you don't want to because of me, haven't you? How is that different from the reverse?
Maybe not, but that doesn't change what I remembered when I did meet you. Is that weird?
[Does Dave even follow Dave's metaphors…?]
You give me plenty of outs but I've never been bothered enough by stuff to take them. The difference is that you're loyal and you value all of us higher than you value yourself. I know what fights to pick and what ones not to pick.
[Case in point, he stopped their waltzing so that he could hold Dave in place to talk to him.]
[ dave sometimes follows dave's metaphors and that has to count for something ]
I want to stay with you more than I'm bothered by...whatever. [ the thing is he can't figure out how to say that in a way that isn't "like yes, i'd cut off my arm even if i didn't want to in order to do this,,, what is your point,,," ] If I can't handle somethin' at all, I'll tell you.
[Maybe John should notice that this is a little more intense than it should be, but he doesn't say anything about it. He's grown used to Dave being clingy and he's grown used to having weird conversations such as allowing Dave to eat his insides.
Haha. Gross. Still. His hands are back to rubbing Dave's arms to warm him up even when he's wrapped in John's blanket and he thinks for a moment. There's a noise though that seems to indicate "sounds fake but okay" to that last part though.]
So hey. Wanna hear something dumb that I'm worried about?
I do. I really do, I get why Ami is frustrated not knowing things and it might help her understand what's going on and answer some of our own questions. I admit I don't know her that well and if this doesn't work out then...it doesn't work out. But I am just making sure.
[It's more rare for Dave to pull away from stuff than it is John in these cases, so. He still remembers Dave leaving when he brought up the meeting.]
[ well dave. sure isn't going to go into how little he wants to do this if john thinks it will help? and everyone else is in. so. it doesn't matter how many outs people give him if he locks himself in to keep other people happy; there's only so much he can take of the others throwing fits about him not telling them things before he just caves and ignores whatever he's comfortable with, although he'll stubborn it out a little longer to try to Not.
accordingly, he drops the topic for the new one. ]
Yes. [He'd argue about the circular argument but he's too tired.] I promise they're really, really good pancakes...will you at least try them? [Look it hasn't even been 24 hours since he fought with him about eating half of a waffle.]
Apple cinnamon. [It's a casual reminder and he finally pulls away to reheat the pancakes.] I'm thinking breakfast and then maybe back to bed for a few hours unless you have a better idea.
I was not, you are correct. [Pancakes are reheated though and he turns to hand him the plate again with the syrup and a fork.] I haven't woken up this early since spring semester of my senior year.
[He'll reheat his pancakes too and in no time have his own plate, leaning against the counter next to Dave's legs.]
Training! I used to get up and go running before I had to get ready for school. My sleeping schedule was sort of a mess on the weekends but it worked out.
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[But yeah, John, what the fuck. It doesn't help that the memories he has are a little too important.]
...birds? Like actual birds or metaphorical birds in metaphorical cages?
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[ dave no one follows your metaphors ]
Look, just - why don't you ever take any of my outs? Do I not give you enough? I know you've done shit you don't want to because of me, haven't you? How is that different from the reverse?
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[Does Dave even follow Dave's metaphors…?]
You give me plenty of outs but I've never been bothered enough by stuff to take them. The difference is that you're loyal and you value all of us higher than you value yourself. I know what fights to pick and what ones not to pick.
[Case in point, he stopped their waltzing so that he could hold Dave in place to talk to him.]
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I want to stay with you more than I'm bothered by...whatever. [ the thing is he can't figure out how to say that in a way that isn't "like yes, i'd cut off my arm even if i didn't want to in order to do this,,, what is your point,,," ] If I can't handle somethin' at all, I'll tell you.
[ probably
maybe ]
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Haha. Gross. Still. His hands are back to rubbing Dave's arms to warm him up even when he's wrapped in John's blanket and he thinks for a moment. There's a noise though that seems to indicate "sounds fake but okay" to that last part though.]
So hey. Wanna hear something dumb that I'm worried about?
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[ although rude af about the "sounds fake but okay" noise, and dave flicks john's cheek. ]
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I'm worried that this whole meeting with the others is going to fuck stuff up no matter how hard I try.
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...I won't run away from you, so... [ a shrug. ] It's not hurtin' you, right?
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No. But I know you're still not cool with it and that is where I kind of want to make sure things are going to be okay.
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I'm still kind of unsure myself, but I think it'll help. [He bites his lip then.] And if you need an out, Rose and I can cover for you.
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You think it'll help, so that's what we'll do. I'm [ surrendering? ] agreein' with you. You're not...making me go unwillingly.
[ more or less? by some definition? ]
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I do. I really do, I get why Ami is frustrated not knowing things and it might help her understand what's going on and answer some of our own questions. I admit I don't know her that well and if this doesn't work out then...it doesn't work out. But I am just making sure.
[It's more rare for Dave to pull away from stuff than it is John in these cases, so. He still remembers Dave leaving when he brought up the meeting.]
...it's still Saturday, right?
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accordingly, he drops the topic for the new one. ]
It is in fact still Saturday, yeah.
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I can reheat the pancakes? They're a lot better warm.
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[ TO EITHER OF THOSE THINGS... ]
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[So like. A few months ago. But whatever.]
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[ this time dave actually takes the plate and just. hops up to sit on the counter this time and eat with it in his lap? ]
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Training! I used to get up and go running before I had to get ready for school. My sleeping schedule was sort of a mess on the weekends but it worked out.
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[ which. doesn't bug him, actually. he's fine with physical activity, he just hates Nature. ]
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