I didn’t know I used to talk about him so much. I guess it makes sense since he was my guardian but I guess it just never really...[A shrug. ] I miss him still. A lot.
Reasons. [ he could go in depth but he won’t unless john pursues that, instead swallowing and trying to figure out how to say what he means without upsetting the metaphorical table. it’s a concern he’s had since last month. ]
Reasons. [Please explain, Dave.] ...I’m sorry sometimes I can be a crappy best friend not sharing the important stuff. But yeah. Likewise. It’s kind of like...I feel more like myself when I’m with you and Rose.
Yes, reasons. [ that’s not asking so he lets himself slide ] You’re not...crappy, I just like when you do. Share things with me you don’t with other people outside of the girls. [ rose and jade, always ] Or being the person you text when you’re bored. Or a million little things. I don’t know.
What reasons? [TELL HIM THINGS. While he folds apple-cinnamon mixture into the batter.] I share a lot of things with you that I don't bother telling anybody else, actually.
...somehow I have a feeling you would not forget regardless. [And yet he still doesn't mind Dave taking pictures apparently.] But just...you know, stuff. Like how I absolutely cannot stand being alone for long periods of time.
Because I hear it in my head all the time like I was born with it. [It's a stupid answer but he thinks Dave might understand.] Because I think about things and it's inspiration I'd be stupid to ignore?
I am pretty sure that is just called art, Dave.[The stove goes on and a frying pan also goes on the stove.] I mean...if you want to take pictures then whatever. You really ought to use your real camera more anyway.
Which one? I’d use the film one more but it’s kinda hard when I don’t really have a darkroom setup now. I can use the school ones but that’s a pain? Maybe I should find a Polaroid camera. But the digital, yeah, maybe. Dirk made the one I’m usin’ now. So I haven’t, as much, lately.
Polaroids would be pretty cool. You could string them up on your side of the room and stuff. [But ah. That explains that.] What about just borrowing one of the darkrooms on campus? You could probably sweettalk somebody in the arts department.
Yeah. I'll have to look into trackin' one down. I used to actually have strings of photos that were dryin' and shit in my room?
[ dave talks about dirk like john talks - or talked - about his dad: intermittently and uncertainly. ]
And obviously I could flirt my way into anythin', regardless of what Hasumi thinks. I've actually used theirs once or twice, it's just not...very conducive to developing shit at like, two am or whatever?
I know. I mean I remember seeing the lines. [He's carefully making sure the pancakes are perfectly round and seems to be very specific about what he's doing. He doesn't bring up Dirk again because he can get that Dave redirects around it.]
I don't know who that is, but you probably could for reasons I do not get sometimes. We could probably set something up in here if you tried.
In my room in this lifetime, I meant. But yeah, that one. And Keito. Keito Hasumi?
[ dave rolls his eyes. ]
One, it's because I am obviously smokin' in addition to being charming as fuck, two, the dorm's a little small and I don't mind the constant smell of chemicals but you might. And Mewpac. I'd be worried she'd get into the shit.
Oh. Well obviously I have never been in your room here so I'm assuming. And I actually did not know that was Keito's last name. [Oops.]
One, shut up. But two okay you have a point. I'd be worried about her poisoning herself, too. She's still a baby. [He apparently has nothing to say about chemical smells for himself, so he flips the pancakes in the pan. They probably smell delicious at this point.]
She also gets into everything, which is a cat thing, but yeah: I wouldn't feel comfortable runnin' a darkroom with her around unless I had a door that locked and more space.
[ it's actually a reasonable concern so SOMETIMES his objections are more nuanced than "this is a nice thing i do not deserve".
he slides his phone out to snap a shot because his camera is not on him, shut up. ]
Maybe someday then. [He's somehow capable of doing that perfect flip where it lands on the spatula again while he cooks it for a little longer on one side. These pancakes are going to be awesome, and he doesn't notice or care about Dave taking pictures.] I've thought about it some and I really want my own studio space, I think.
Finally gettin' tired of sharing your workspace with the entire university?
[ there's a hint of amusement but at least he doesn't tell john to flip majors Again. he thinks it, but. ]
It'd probably be good for you. Come to think of it, I've never had any space bigger than one room that was "mine", and I haven't had that here for more than like a year or two. And I don't currently, obviously.
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I already told you that one. [ or more properly he’d said that john’s dad would have done anything for him. ]
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I just missed it.
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[ thanks dave. what he actually does is pet mewpac, though. ]
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[The thing is that Dave could if he really wanted to.]
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I meant, I missed bein’ your best friend.
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- still. ]
I don’t want to forget these moments.
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[ it’s that. that impulse. ]
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[He'll just start making pancakes at this point.]
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[ dave talks about dirk like john talks - or talked - about his dad: intermittently and uncertainly. ]
And obviously I could flirt my way into anythin', regardless of what Hasumi thinks. I've actually used theirs once or twice, it's just not...very conducive to developing shit at like, two am or whatever?
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I don't know who that is, but you probably could for reasons I do not get sometimes. We could probably set something up in here if you tried.
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[ dave rolls his eyes. ]
One, it's because I am obviously smokin' in addition to being charming as fuck, two, the dorm's a little small and I don't mind the constant smell of chemicals but you might. And Mewpac. I'd be worried she'd get into the shit.
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One, shut up. But two okay you have a point. I'd be worried about her poisoning herself, too. She's still a baby. [He apparently has nothing to say about chemical smells for himself, so he flips the pancakes in the pan. They probably smell delicious at this point.]
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[ it's actually a reasonable concern so SOMETIMES his objections are more nuanced than "this is a nice thing i do not deserve".
he slides his phone out to snap a shot because his camera is not on him, shut up. ]
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[ there's a hint of amusement but at least he doesn't tell john to flip majors Again. he thinks it, but. ]
It'd probably be good for you. Come to think of it, I've never had any space bigger than one room that was "mine", and I haven't had that here for more than like a year or two. And I don't currently, obviously.
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