[He stops again, keeping close and he stares at him carefully while he holds onto Dave's arms. There's a whole mess in his head and Dave's face is too close and the things he's saying are both overwhelming and still make sense to what he knows about the old universe and how he wants to go forward.
Dave Strider is his best friend and knowing that everything's been destroyed and pulled out from under them a few times, stability's...nice. It's nice to know that it's something centering and steadying and calm, it's nice to know that Dave at his core really just sort of cares about the thing John knows he wants to have and maybe it's weird but they've never been normal.
So yeah. He's too close and he's staring before there's a very slow nod.]
...yeah, dude. Always? I've known that since September.
[ john, what the fuck. it's not like that isn't true for dave (since september, since he was ten, since over half a year ago when he remembered a best friend who wasn't there) but there's a wryly amused tone when he says it anyway because dave acknowledges how utterly stupid everything he says is, mostly. ]
Why don't you try thinkin' about it like...birds. If it worries you. Is what I mean.
Okay, but you didn't know you met me until September, when you met your weird new roomie and we mean both, god.
[ dave no one follows your metaphors ]
Look, just - why don't you ever take any of my outs? Do I not give you enough? I know you've done shit you don't want to because of me, haven't you? How is that different from the reverse?
Maybe not, but that doesn't change what I remembered when I did meet you. Is that weird?
[Does Dave even follow Dave's metaphors…?]
You give me plenty of outs but I've never been bothered enough by stuff to take them. The difference is that you're loyal and you value all of us higher than you value yourself. I know what fights to pick and what ones not to pick.
[Case in point, he stopped their waltzing so that he could hold Dave in place to talk to him.]
[ dave sometimes follows dave's metaphors and that has to count for something ]
I want to stay with you more than I'm bothered by...whatever. [ the thing is he can't figure out how to say that in a way that isn't "like yes, i'd cut off my arm even if i didn't want to in order to do this,,, what is your point,,," ] If I can't handle somethin' at all, I'll tell you.
[Maybe John should notice that this is a little more intense than it should be, but he doesn't say anything about it. He's grown used to Dave being clingy and he's grown used to having weird conversations such as allowing Dave to eat his insides.
Haha. Gross. Still. His hands are back to rubbing Dave's arms to warm him up even when he's wrapped in John's blanket and he thinks for a moment. There's a noise though that seems to indicate "sounds fake but okay" to that last part though.]
So hey. Wanna hear something dumb that I'm worried about?
I do. I really do, I get why Ami is frustrated not knowing things and it might help her understand what's going on and answer some of our own questions. I admit I don't know her that well and if this doesn't work out then...it doesn't work out. But I am just making sure.
[It's more rare for Dave to pull away from stuff than it is John in these cases, so. He still remembers Dave leaving when he brought up the meeting.]
[ well dave. sure isn't going to go into how little he wants to do this if john thinks it will help? and everyone else is in. so. it doesn't matter how many outs people give him if he locks himself in to keep other people happy; there's only so much he can take of the others throwing fits about him not telling them things before he just caves and ignores whatever he's comfortable with, although he'll stubborn it out a little longer to try to Not.
accordingly, he drops the topic for the new one. ]
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Because it's second nature? [Dancing and time, he thinks.] Do you do this with everybody or just me at this rate?
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- It's a just-you thing right now. It...gives me something to count.
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[ look. ]
I don't know how to say things in a way you'll believe?
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How's that any different from I have no idea how to say the same thing?
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[ let's go back to laughing at inappropriate times, here. ]
...I don't know if I care?
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Explain. I'm lost again.
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[ which is maybe terrible, but whatever - ]
- As long as you call the place we go back to "home" I really don't care about all the other details. I'll do whatever.
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Dave Strider is his best friend and knowing that everything's been destroyed and pulled out from under them a few times, stability's...nice. It's nice to know that it's something centering and steadying and calm, it's nice to know that Dave at his core really just sort of cares about the thing John knows he wants to have and maybe it's weird but they've never been normal.
So yeah. He's too close and he's staring before there's a very slow nod.]
...yeah, dude. Always? I've known that since September.
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[ john, what the fuck. it's not like that isn't true for dave (since september, since he was ten, since over half a year ago when he remembered a best friend who wasn't there) but there's a wryly amused tone when he says it anyway because dave acknowledges how utterly stupid everything he says is, mostly. ]
Why don't you try thinkin' about it like...birds. If it worries you. Is what I mean.
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[But yeah, John, what the fuck. It doesn't help that the memories he has are a little too important.]
...birds? Like actual birds or metaphorical birds in metaphorical cages?
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[ dave no one follows your metaphors ]
Look, just - why don't you ever take any of my outs? Do I not give you enough? I know you've done shit you don't want to because of me, haven't you? How is that different from the reverse?
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[Does Dave even follow Dave's metaphors…?]
You give me plenty of outs but I've never been bothered enough by stuff to take them. The difference is that you're loyal and you value all of us higher than you value yourself. I know what fights to pick and what ones not to pick.
[Case in point, he stopped their waltzing so that he could hold Dave in place to talk to him.]
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I want to stay with you more than I'm bothered by...whatever. [ the thing is he can't figure out how to say that in a way that isn't "like yes, i'd cut off my arm even if i didn't want to in order to do this,,, what is your point,,," ] If I can't handle somethin' at all, I'll tell you.
[ probably
maybe ]
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Haha. Gross. Still. His hands are back to rubbing Dave's arms to warm him up even when he's wrapped in John's blanket and he thinks for a moment. There's a noise though that seems to indicate "sounds fake but okay" to that last part though.]
So hey. Wanna hear something dumb that I'm worried about?
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[ although rude af about the "sounds fake but okay" noise, and dave flicks john's cheek. ]
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I'm worried that this whole meeting with the others is going to fuck stuff up no matter how hard I try.
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...I won't run away from you, so... [ a shrug. ] It's not hurtin' you, right?
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No. But I know you're still not cool with it and that is where I kind of want to make sure things are going to be okay.
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I'm still kind of unsure myself, but I think it'll help. [He bites his lip then.] And if you need an out, Rose and I can cover for you.
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You think it'll help, so that's what we'll do. I'm [ surrendering? ] agreein' with you. You're not...making me go unwillingly.
[ more or less? by some definition? ]
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I do. I really do, I get why Ami is frustrated not knowing things and it might help her understand what's going on and answer some of our own questions. I admit I don't know her that well and if this doesn't work out then...it doesn't work out. But I am just making sure.
[It's more rare for Dave to pull away from stuff than it is John in these cases, so. He still remembers Dave leaving when he brought up the meeting.]
...it's still Saturday, right?
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accordingly, he drops the topic for the new one. ]
It is in fact still Saturday, yeah.
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