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[parodeity]

DAVE STRIDER

consider this your warning about stairs. itll just keep happening bro. im telling you man

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[parodeity]

[ this blind trust is exactly what he always relied on back then. he is automatically trying to rely on his ability to talk fast to get him out of any confirmation of his deepest secret.

he does shrug, though. ]

You aren’t wrong that part of it is I don’t...people who have agreed to shit with me before have eventually regretted it, or they leave, or whatever. Both timelines. It’s not that it isn’t a factor. It just isn’t the only factor.

[ he keeps jumping around because he is not sure wtf they need to talk out but he’s a little desperate to make sure whatever it is works. ]

- I figured you wanted me to fuck off.

[windeity]

[But is Dave desperate to make sure things get talked out and fixed or just that John doesn't learn about Bro? The world may never know.]

I still think you should maybe let me make that decision to take the risk anyway, but I have a hard time picturing regretting or leaving considering what I have told you about my life and the things I hate. But I get it. It's a scary thing to think about.

[He's somehow trying to keep up though.] I don't want you to fuck off. You piss me off sometimes when I have no idea what's going on and I feel like my brain is melting sometimes and I threw my phone into the ocean, but I'll get over it after a while. It's never permanent and like I said, it is just another thing we can work on if you want. We do have to live together for the rest of the year and next summer.

[They don't have to live together next summer, but he wants to and he's conveying that as well as he can.]

[parodeity]

[ some of column a some of column b ]

- what did you want to know. About what I said or did. Last night?

[ we are still skipping around apparently ]

[windeity]

[Hm. There are a lot of things but he's on a little bit of overload trying to even remember.]

If I had let you go last night, would you have eventually come back?

[parodeity]

[ instant shrug. ]

Probably, if I figured you wanted me around again. I would have kept out of your hair ‘til then.

[windeity]

And what would you have taken as a sign that I wanted you around again? [May as well know for the future.]

[parodeity]

Saying so or touching me, I guess?

[ he clearly hadn’t thought that far ahead. ]

[windeity]

If I recall, I tried to hug you like twenty minutes ago and you sat there and stared at me. [He sounds mildly amused at least.] I'm sorry I blocked you from leaving but I kind of think maybe I was a little right? At least for last night. In the future if you want to go somewhere I won't stop you since I know you'll eventually come back

[Or John will figure out how to with this new information.]

...I know there are a lot of things you are afraid of that we talked about yesterday. But I will do what I can to make sure it's less of a thing. [And then, curiously:] Still against coming inside and sleeping with me tonight?

[parodeity]

Probably you were. My reactions when I shut down ain’t always the most reliable. It wasn’t like it was a panic attack or anything, though.

[ muttered. he raises back to a speaking voice for: ].

...not if you want me there. Was that your only question?

[windeity]

[He thinks about asking about panic attacks, but then he thinks maybe he misheard and so he leaves it alone.]

I have other ones, but it's still really cold out and I am a little worried about you getting sick from staying out too long. Come inside with me?

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I don’t get sick easy.

[ ...why can’t they talk inside though. ]

Can you ask the other ones? I’ll avoid the roof for, I don’t know, the rest of the week.

[windeity]

[Yeah this is a little weird, Dave.]

Is there something wrong that you don't want to come inside yet?

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...no. [ sounds like yes but he can’t figure out how to word his issue so he twists his hands away so he can stand up. ] Just bein’ weird?

[windeity]

Dude. [He stays on the ground and looks at him carefully.] Whatever it is you may as well try to say it now?

[parodeity]

...I still don't know if I completely understand how I fucked up, and I'm worried I'll do it again.

[windeity]

[He looks guilty for a moment before he shrugs.]

I think...that is also partially on me not actually listening to you the first time. And now I get it and it should be fine. [Laughing during serious moments, not talking things through, etc.] Even if you won't talk to me about certain things for whatever reason, are you going to care if I do?

[parodeity]

Care if you do what?

[ he's a little lost. ]

[windeity]

Talk. Sometimes you cut me off with stupid jokes or changing the subject, and that's fine, but I want to know if sometimes I can ignore that just to talk even if you are not saying anything back.

[parodeity]

...No, I don't mind. You haven't...

[ he shrugs. ]

If there's somethin' that's off limits to that degree, I'll say so.

[windeity]

Okay. Then you don't really stand a good chance at fucking up again. And if you do, I will let you know before we get to that point. Is that better?

[parodeity]

...On my side, sure?

[ he thinks. ]

[windeity]

[It's good enough and he'll just have to curb his own behavior a bit to work in those perimeters. That's fine. He can make this work.]

Cool. So can we go inside now? You may be fine but I'm freezing my ass off up here.

[parodeity]

You are not.

[ gestures to john's hands. ]

I mean, you felt warm to me. But...sure. If you're sure you don't wanna ask whatever else.

[windeity]

[It's getting cold, but he was trying to get Dave to go inside. On the other hand, Dave is still being Dave, so.]

...why was your first response when we woke up to offer to go sleep somewhere else? [After the nightmare, he means.]

[parodeity]

[ ... ]

Because you made a blanket fort and were weird and quiet and playing solitaire, and I was pretty sure I'd fuck it up if I tried to comfort you. Which, like, I did do.

[ so he wasn't wrong. ]

So, gettin' out of the way and letting you either chill alone or contact someone more... [ competent? ] ...whatever you wanted or needed might've been more helpful. So I offered.