Sometimes the answer is just "nothing", Dave. I don't plan on killing anything. You already told me I can keep talking and that is all I need sometimes. [And he's about to leave it at that, but.] ...no one needs to know about the mess in my head when all I need is a few minutes to sort it out. It's not about never saying it. It's about how it's being said.
[He just rolls his eyes and finally gets up, stepping closer and pressing his forehead to Dave's to make sure he can't move.]
I mean. Neither am I. I think we have established that? But I've come to find I like all version of you so far and want to get to know the others better. Is that a problem?
At the time I didn't! Because I was thirteen and clueless and I didn't know how to deal with a Dave who knew way more than I did. And also had feathers. And it is sort of like that now? A Dave who knows way more than me but you don't have feathers and even if you had feathers I would try I think.
[Because you love me that's why. John's also just holding his face so Dave can't abscond, so there.]
But I want to understand everything so...shut up. I'm still working through everything, can you really blame me for being a little lost on stuff?
In at least three ways. I've said we're the same damn guy before, to someone else, but that was to prove a point and to get them to talk to me. We're not, actually. I'm the same guy who - I'm the me I remember being.
Okay so you aren't the same person as he is, which means you cannot get mad at me for saying I did not want to talk to bird you back then. There's a difference. [But there's an inhale instead.]
So. You can still be mine if you want but you have to give me some time to process everything. I am remembering as fast as I can so we're on the same page but some of these things are going to be complicated to immediately bounce back from. But I will. Trust me?
John, I can be patient for you, that isn't a problem.
[ the frown's still there. ]
I just...what I am trying and failing to say is that I don't want you to cut yourself to pieces to keep me...whatever. If you are sure that is a thing you aren't doin', fine, but I know what that is, and that you can't always see people doing it, and that when they do the point is you won't see. I just...don't want this to be about that. Ever.
...so...you're worried about me hurting myself trying to keep things up for you but you're totally fine with it being the reverse. What was that about hypocrisy? [A little smile.] Dave. I promise it will be fine and that is not what this is about.
Is it? [He's just going to give Dave a Look even as he's thinking something over. He doesn't mind Dave's hands on his, making sure his face provides no tells.]
[...yeah okay. He's had just about enough of this and he absolutely doesn't agree, and Dave's being a total idiot and freezing. So he lets Dave say his piece before he steps back and without warning moves to. You know. Wrap him up in his bedding, pick him up, and start bridal carrying him back to the door to the roof.]
Yeah, I know. And in most cases I think it looks better on you than me there are some cases I would prefer it not being on either of us. So. Shut up. It is not different and you know it.
[ oh my god what the fuck. dave doesn't usually make undignified noises that often? and he barely does now, it's just a strangled sort of grunt as he's. picked up bridal style. what the fuck. his hands definitely got knocked off in that and his left immediately grips john's shoulder for balance and wHAT THE FUCK, JOHN
[They did, and John's not at all sorry as Dave grabs him for balance and John's only response is to laugh while dutifully carrying Dave away from the edge of the roof and back inside.]
Hey, I gave you chances. You are still freezing and you keep dodging any attempts at going inside, so I am making the decision for us.
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[ dave, king of non-answers, would know. ]
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[ whatever that means. ]
...but sure.
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Now what are you talking about...?
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[ he makes a weird so-so gesture with his left hand, before he jams that and his right one in his pockets. ]
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I mean. Neither am I. I think we have established that? But I've come to find I like all version of you so far and want to get to know the others better. Is that a problem?
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You literally just told me that you didn't want to talk to the bird version of me.
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[Because you love me that's why. John's also just holding his face so Dave can't abscond, so there.]
But I want to understand everything so...shut up. I'm still working through everything, can you really blame me for being a little lost on stuff?
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[ john's version. ]
In at least three ways. I've said we're the same damn guy before, to someone else, but that was to prove a point and to get them to talk to me. We're not, actually. I'm the same guy who - I'm the me I remember being.
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So. You can still be mine if you want but you have to give me some time to process everything. I am remembering as fast as I can so we're on the same page but some of these things are going to be complicated to immediately bounce back from. But I will. Trust me?
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[ the frown's still there. ]
I just...what I am trying and failing to say is that I don't want you to cut yourself to pieces to keep me...whatever. If you are sure that is a thing you aren't doin', fine, but I know what that is, and that you can't always see people doing it, and that when they do the point is you won't see. I just...don't want this to be about that. Ever.
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he is still
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...red's my color, not yours.
here take my 8000th tag
Yeah, I know. And in most cases I think it looks better on you than me there are some cases I would prefer it not being on either of us. So. Shut up. It is not different and you know it.
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- Dude!
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Hey, I gave you chances. You are still freezing and you keep dodging any attempts at going inside, so I am making the decision for us.
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[ he says, freezing, ]
Also this is an extreme misuse of your weird jock strength and I am goin' to sue.
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