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[parodeity]

DAVE STRIDER

consider this your warning about stairs. itll just keep happening bro. im telling you man

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[parodeity]

...No, I don't mind. You haven't...

[ he shrugs. ]

If there's somethin' that's off limits to that degree, I'll say so.

[windeity]

Okay. Then you don't really stand a good chance at fucking up again. And if you do, I will let you know before we get to that point. Is that better?

[parodeity]

...On my side, sure?

[ he thinks. ]

[windeity]

[It's good enough and he'll just have to curb his own behavior a bit to work in those perimeters. That's fine. He can make this work.]

Cool. So can we go inside now? You may be fine but I'm freezing my ass off up here.

[parodeity]

You are not.

[ gestures to john's hands. ]

I mean, you felt warm to me. But...sure. If you're sure you don't wanna ask whatever else.

[windeity]

[It's getting cold, but he was trying to get Dave to go inside. On the other hand, Dave is still being Dave, so.]

...why was your first response when we woke up to offer to go sleep somewhere else? [After the nightmare, he means.]

[parodeity]

[ ... ]

Because you made a blanket fort and were weird and quiet and playing solitaire, and I was pretty sure I'd fuck it up if I tried to comfort you. Which, like, I did do.

[ so he wasn't wrong. ]

So, gettin' out of the way and letting you either chill alone or contact someone more... [ competent? ] ...whatever you wanted or needed might've been more helpful. So I offered.

[windeity]

And I just told you part of that was on me forgetting what you told me. It's fine now. Sometimes I get weird and quiet, that is really not. [A sigh.] It got weird because you offered, I had no idea why, and I kind of just thought it meant you didn't want to deal and it went from there. Sometimes I need a few minutes to chill the fuck out but you were the person I wanted to see most after that.

So. Like I said, now I know and it's fine. [Nts: make forts when Dave isn't around.]

[parodeity]

What I told you about what? [ he has no idea what john means by that, but. he licks his lips, trying to order his thoughts. ] I don't...

[ ... ]

I don't mind dealing with other people's shit. I just don't know...how. Usually. I'm not great at hugs, I usually say the wrong thing, and honestly my first suggestion on findin' someone passed out drunk is currently "have you tried kicking her" so I'm not...like, good at this? No one taught me to be good at this.

[windeity]

It's okay. [Which means he's not going to explain.] I get it.

And...it's fine. I am not asking you to be great at it, but I am asking that you don't kick me if I'm passed out somewhere. [A joking grin.] Don't worry so much about being good at it. You were doing fine before.

[parodeity]

Before the part where I wasn't??

[ john... ]

[windeity]

You were doing fine, I just...wasn't entirely ready just yet for that reaction so that was on me, too. That's all. Everything else was fine.

[parodeity]

Which reaction?

[ TELL HIM WHICH PART SPECIFICALLY HE NEEDS TO WRITE OUT OF HIS PERSONALITY, CHRIST ]

[windeity]

Don't worry. I understand it now. It's fine. Do you still trust me?

[Yeah he's not a moron, Dave, he's not mentioning which part specifically for that reason.]

[parodeity]

That is such a non-answer.

[ dave, king of non-answers, would know. ]

[windeity]

Maybe it is, but it's my own shit. So. Do you trust me?

[parodeity]

That's not the issue here, dude.

[windeity]

Cool, so trust me when I say it's going to be fine and you don't have to stress yourself out. I get it. And I'm okay.

[parodeity]

Yeah, but I get the feeling this just became less a compromise and more a flip of which of us plays the sacrifice card.

[windeity]

Considering I am pretty sure you would always play the sacrifice card if you could? Yeah, this is a compromise.

[parodeity]

So tell me honestly, Eggs. What have you just decided to kill or never say? The answer isn't actually "nothing", is it?

[windeity]

Sometimes the answer is just "nothing", Dave. I don't plan on killing anything. You already told me I can keep talking and that is all I need sometimes. [And he's about to leave it at that, but.] ...no one needs to know about the mess in my head when all I need is a few minutes to sort it out. It's not about never saying it. It's about how it's being said.

[parodeity]

...I'm sorry I'm not good enouogh at bein' me to help with that, for the record.

[ whatever that means. ]

...but sure.

[windeity]

[...SIGH.]

Now what are you talking about...?

[parodeity]

With what? I mean, I'm not the right version of me, usually. Or not the best version.

[ he makes a weird so-so gesture with his left hand, before he jams that and his right one in his pockets. ]