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[parodeity]

DAVE STRIDER

consider this your warning about stairs. itll just keep happening bro. im telling you man

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[parodeity]

[ ... ]

Because you made a blanket fort and were weird and quiet and playing solitaire, and I was pretty sure I'd fuck it up if I tried to comfort you. Which, like, I did do.

[ so he wasn't wrong. ]

So, gettin' out of the way and letting you either chill alone or contact someone more... [ competent? ] ...whatever you wanted or needed might've been more helpful. So I offered.

[windeity]

And I just told you part of that was on me forgetting what you told me. It's fine now. Sometimes I get weird and quiet, that is really not. [A sigh.] It got weird because you offered, I had no idea why, and I kind of just thought it meant you didn't want to deal and it went from there. Sometimes I need a few minutes to chill the fuck out but you were the person I wanted to see most after that.

So. Like I said, now I know and it's fine. [Nts: make forts when Dave isn't around.]

[parodeity]

What I told you about what? [ he has no idea what john means by that, but. he licks his lips, trying to order his thoughts. ] I don't...

[ ... ]

I don't mind dealing with other people's shit. I just don't know...how. Usually. I'm not great at hugs, I usually say the wrong thing, and honestly my first suggestion on findin' someone passed out drunk is currently "have you tried kicking her" so I'm not...like, good at this? No one taught me to be good at this.

[windeity]

It's okay. [Which means he's not going to explain.] I get it.

And...it's fine. I am not asking you to be great at it, but I am asking that you don't kick me if I'm passed out somewhere. [A joking grin.] Don't worry so much about being good at it. You were doing fine before.

[parodeity]

Before the part where I wasn't??

[ john... ]

[windeity]

You were doing fine, I just...wasn't entirely ready just yet for that reaction so that was on me, too. That's all. Everything else was fine.

[parodeity]

Which reaction?

[ TELL HIM WHICH PART SPECIFICALLY HE NEEDS TO WRITE OUT OF HIS PERSONALITY, CHRIST ]

[windeity]

Don't worry. I understand it now. It's fine. Do you still trust me?

[Yeah he's not a moron, Dave, he's not mentioning which part specifically for that reason.]

[parodeity]

That is such a non-answer.

[ dave, king of non-answers, would know. ]

[windeity]

Maybe it is, but it's my own shit. So. Do you trust me?

[parodeity]

That's not the issue here, dude.

[windeity]

Cool, so trust me when I say it's going to be fine and you don't have to stress yourself out. I get it. And I'm okay.

[parodeity]

Yeah, but I get the feeling this just became less a compromise and more a flip of which of us plays the sacrifice card.

[windeity]

Considering I am pretty sure you would always play the sacrifice card if you could? Yeah, this is a compromise.

[parodeity]

So tell me honestly, Eggs. What have you just decided to kill or never say? The answer isn't actually "nothing", is it?

[windeity]

Sometimes the answer is just "nothing", Dave. I don't plan on killing anything. You already told me I can keep talking and that is all I need sometimes. [And he's about to leave it at that, but.] ...no one needs to know about the mess in my head when all I need is a few minutes to sort it out. It's not about never saying it. It's about how it's being said.

[parodeity]

...I'm sorry I'm not good enouogh at bein' me to help with that, for the record.

[ whatever that means. ]

...but sure.

[windeity]

[...SIGH.]

Now what are you talking about...?

[parodeity]

With what? I mean, I'm not the right version of me, usually. Or not the best version.

[ he makes a weird so-so gesture with his left hand, before he jams that and his right one in his pockets. ]

[windeity]

[He just rolls his eyes and finally gets up, stepping closer and pressing his forehead to Dave's to make sure he can't move.]

I mean. Neither am I. I think we have established that? But I've come to find I like all version of you so far and want to get to know the others better. Is that a problem?

[parodeity]

[ i stg why does every thread end up in this location fuck you ]

You literally just told me that you didn't want to talk to the bird version of me.

[windeity]

At the time I didn't! Because I was thirteen and clueless and I didn't know how to deal with a Dave who knew way more than I did. And also had feathers. And it is sort of like that now? A Dave who knows way more than me but you don't have feathers and even if you had feathers I would try I think.

[Because you love me that's why. John's also just holding his face so Dave can't abscond, so there.]

But I want to understand everything so...shut up. I'm still working through everything, can you really blame me for being a little lost on stuff?

[parodeity]

...It's kind of different. I'm yours.

[ john's version. ]

In at least three ways. I've said we're the same damn guy before, to someone else, but that was to prove a point and to get them to talk to me. We're not, actually. I'm the same guy who - I'm the me I remember being.

[windeity]

Okay so you aren't the same person as he is, which means you cannot get mad at me for saying I did not want to talk to bird you back then. There's a difference. [But there's an inhale instead.]

So. You can still be mine if you want but you have to give me some time to process everything. I am remembering as fast as I can so we're on the same page but some of these things are going to be complicated to immediately bounce back from. But I will. Trust me?

[parodeity]

John, I can be patient for you, that isn't a problem.

[ the frown's still there. ]

I just...what I am trying and failing to say is that I don't want you to cut yourself to pieces to keep me...whatever. If you are sure that is a thing you aren't doin', fine, but I know what that is, and that you can't always see people doing it, and that when they do the point is you won't see. I just...don't want this to be about that. Ever.