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[parodeity]

DAVE STRIDER

consider this your warning about stairs. itll just keep happening bro. im telling you man

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[parodeity]

Well, don't break out impressions?? [ god.

but okay. ]

I think they had game abstraction knowledge to some degree, just not as much of it as they would have needed to know it would've been more helpful to give her over to me so the life player could like, hit reset.

[windeity]

Well they were dogs. I did not anticipate them having as much intelligence as the sprites. They thought you were trying to take her to hurt her?

[parodeity]

I don't know. It was hard to have a real conversation since they were tryin' to kill one another and also me.

[windeity]

So much of our world involved everybody being crazy. [But he goes back to the original topic.] What else would you say to Jade?

[parodeity]

...That I was sorry for making her watch me die that one time.

[ haha........... ]

[windeity]

Which time was that? [He can guess, like, vaguely, but he doesn't know that much.]

[parodeity]

Lofaf. We were doing frog breeding, Jack shot me up. I knew it was gonna happen but I didn't, like, warn her.

[windeity]

Ahhh. [He shifts enough so that even if he's still laying between Dave's legs he's just kind of curled up into him to keep listening. His head hurts a little less at least.] Did you think she would try to stop it?

[parodeity]

If she had, she would've doomed that timeline. [ so...

yes, kind of? ] Even Rose wouldn't be good at that kind of inevitability, I don't think. You all would have tried to stop it, even if it wasn't a thing that could be stopped.

[windeity]

So you kept it a secret from her to make sure that the timeline went the way it was supposed to, and that is why she did the kiss of life on you. Did she ever understand later?

[parodeity]

[ ...A SHRUG? ] We never really discussed it. After that Rose and I both woke up in our dreamselves since we lost life numero uno.

[windeity]

I figured, given that while my sister was busy kissing your corpse I was busy kissing your sister's. [Homestuck why.] I think...if Jade is anything like me, it was probably scary to see, but later it made sense. Especially since you guys had dream selves, too.

[parodeity]

We're pretty lucky that suicide mission took place on a moon with quest beds at the heart.

[windeity]

[Slooooow sigh.]

I still cannot believe neither of you told us and you both went. But you did get lucky but that is just how the timeline was supposed to go.

[...] I think...given how everything in the game was, she would have forgiven you. You've always tried really hard.

[parodeity]

She tried to take it for herself. But something showed up. So I went after her and killed it.

[ after she mcfuckin knocked him out :/ ]

[windeity]

You both suck. Seriously. [He glances at the ceiling.]

...what else did the trees tell you?

[parodeity]

[ .....................well.

it's true dave's marks probably haven't faded as much as john's did. ]

...Variations on not being enough, mostly.

[windeity]

Enough how so? [The marks are still there and he's concerned about if this is even the right idea. But they've faded a little so maybe...?]

[parodeity]

Worthy of...things. People. [ being considered a human. whatever. ]

[windeity]

What makes you think that you aren't? Because some things didn't work out?

[parodeity]

[ it was maybe more the 13 years of child abuse but we don't talk about that still ]

I think that sometimes I have a hard time considering myself worthwhile. I don't know.

[windeity]

Oh. [...] Does it bother you if other people think you're worthwhile?

[parodeity]

It's not that. I just...sometimes I feel like I'm pulling off this elaborate trick. Like, I'm tricking you - everyone - into thinking that somehow. I know it's stupid.

[windeity]

Is there anything that could be done or said to help?

[parodeity]

John, babe. You do help. Every day. There's just...things I haven't talked about with you.

[ he runs a hand through john's hair, absently. ]

And that's kind of part of it too.