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[parodeity]

DAVE STRIDER

consider this your warning about stairs. itll just keep happening bro. im telling you man

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[windeity]

[He brings their hands up to kiss Dave's fingers?]

...Did I ever tell you I told Nanna about you and me before we totally lost contact?

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[ this information gets a blank stare that covers genuine surprise. ]

That we were roommates? [ they weren't anything else back then ]

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[There's a deep inhale and he shakes his head slowly.]

Not...just...that.

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[ ..........

there's an amused snort. ]

You liked me back then?

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[He pushes at Dave's forehead.]

Pretty sure, yeah. Or at least I was starting to figure it out. And I figured if it was the last time I'd talk to Nanna it made sense to tell her.

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About how hot and awesome I am, of course.

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Yeah, I guess that was part of it. [He just kind of pats Dave's face, not quite continuing.]

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[ wow??? ] So, what was the rest of it?

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...I told her that I didn't know how I felt about you, but I wanted to keep you with me. And she told me that was something worth pursuing.

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I would've stayed no matter what you decided.

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How would that have been fair to you?

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I would've gotten to stay with you. [ duh. ]

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I...ignored her advice for a long time. We talked. She told me it was okay and I told her it wasn't. For a long time I thought it wasn't and I argued with her a lot.

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Why did you think it wasn't?

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A lot of self-loathing mostly. Self-loathing and just...internalized disgust that I couldn't keep the lines separate. Nanna and I used to fight about Vic, too. Or I guess I would fight and she'd talk to me in her own Nanna way.

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[ about what dave expected admittedly ]

You know I'm sorry for that part, yeah?

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You didn't do anything wrong, dude. That's why it's a shitty thing and why I owe you a huge apology.

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I mean, it ain't like I don't get it. You're not fifty fifty. I got it back then too or figured you just weren't - wouldn't, whatever. All I minded was the whole - kind of halfway dating me without dating me thing.

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Which was also really unfair. You're a person, not broccoli.

[Whatever.] I shouldn't have tried dating you without dating you and Nanna told me it was fine if I was interested in guys and I kind of told her not to have dumb ideas.

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[ ok obviously dave is going to focus on: ] Broccoli?

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I had a really long discussion with Nat about my sexuality in terms of liking pie and broccoli. It's stupid, never mind.

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Why the hell was I the gross vegetable???

[windeity]

Uh, I happen to like broccoli actually so I wouldn't say you were the gross vegetable.

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I demand you make me an apple in all future metaphors.

[windeity]

You know that doesn't even make sense, right? Then again I can definitely compare you to an apple if you want me to, it's not like you don't have apple traits.