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[parodeity]

DAVE STRIDER

consider this your warning about stairs. itll just keep happening bro. im telling you man

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[windeity]

How would that have been fair to you?

[parodeity]

I would've gotten to stay with you. [ duh. ]

[windeity]

I...ignored her advice for a long time. We talked. She told me it was okay and I told her it wasn't. For a long time I thought it wasn't and I argued with her a lot.

[parodeity]

Why did you think it wasn't?

[windeity]

A lot of self-loathing mostly. Self-loathing and just...internalized disgust that I couldn't keep the lines separate. Nanna and I used to fight about Vic, too. Or I guess I would fight and she'd talk to me in her own Nanna way.

[parodeity]

[ about what dave expected admittedly ]

You know I'm sorry for that part, yeah?

[windeity]

You didn't do anything wrong, dude. That's why it's a shitty thing and why I owe you a huge apology.

[parodeity]

I mean, it ain't like I don't get it. You're not fifty fifty. I got it back then too or figured you just weren't - wouldn't, whatever. All I minded was the whole - kind of halfway dating me without dating me thing.

[windeity]

Which was also really unfair. You're a person, not broccoli.

[Whatever.] I shouldn't have tried dating you without dating you and Nanna told me it was fine if I was interested in guys and I kind of told her not to have dumb ideas.

[parodeity]

[ ok obviously dave is going to focus on: ] Broccoli?

[windeity]

I had a really long discussion with Nat about my sexuality in terms of liking pie and broccoli. It's stupid, never mind.

[parodeity]

Why the hell was I the gross vegetable???

[windeity]

Uh, I happen to like broccoli actually so I wouldn't say you were the gross vegetable.

[parodeity]

I demand you make me an apple in all future metaphors.

[windeity]

You know that doesn't even make sense, right? Then again I can definitely compare you to an apple if you want me to, it's not like you don't have apple traits.

[parodeity]

Well, if you ever have to metaphor it up again. [ a shrug. ] I'm not, like. Angry. About it. I've said. I mean - I can't say it didn't fuck with me, but that wasn't on you. I was just, you know. The sort of fucked up you get when you know someone doesn't like you back?

[windeity]

I am very familiar with that kind of fucked up, yes. I think I took it out wrong on pretty much everybody and then around the same time I remembered my dad being dead in the other universe and screaming about bird you and yeah pretty much everything was just a mess.

[parodeity]

What, seriously? Who'd you like? [ dish. ] But yeah, like. I got fucked up in that sense but it wasn't on you.

[windeity]

[He rolls his eyes.] It was just a couple of different girls in high school, nothing that matters now. But the point is it sucks. I didn't mean to fuck you up like that.

[parodeity]

...What, you liked girls in high school here like recently? [ they're not far enough out of high school that's weird but it is massively discouraging. ]

[windeity]

..not recently. No, I mean like. Pre-you.

[parodeity]

So you...think you took out remembering your dad on people here?

[windeity]

I took out stupid shit on people, yes. I flipped out on Nat when I remembered about my dad and I jerked you around for a while and both of those sucked.

[parodeity]

John. Listen to me for a second, will you? [ his thumbs trace idly over john's cheeks, soothing. ] Yeah, that sucked. But for the part about me, you...you were really worth the wait. And the jerking around. It's okay.

[windeity]

[He's holding his breath but he's also leaning into Dave's touch.]

...you know you're always worth waiting for too, don't you? I made my decision about you even knowing that you weren't telling me everything and that there were problems you didn't want to address yet.