I mean, it ain't like I don't get it. You're not fifty fifty. I got it back then too or figured you just weren't - wouldn't, whatever. All I minded was the whole - kind of halfway dating me without dating me thing.
Which was also really unfair. You're a person, not broccoli.
[Whatever.] I shouldn't have tried dating you without dating you and Nanna told me it was fine if I was interested in guys and I kind of told her not to have dumb ideas.
You know that doesn't even make sense, right? Then again I can definitely compare you to an apple if you want me to, it's not like you don't have apple traits.
Well, if you ever have to metaphor it up again. [ a shrug. ] I'm not, like. Angry. About it. I've said. I mean - I can't say it didn't fuck with me, but that wasn't on you. I was just, you know. The sort of fucked up you get when you know someone doesn't like you back?
I am very familiar with that kind of fucked up, yes. I think I took it out wrong on pretty much everybody and then around the same time I remembered my dad being dead in the other universe and screaming about bird you and yeah pretty much everything was just a mess.
[He rolls his eyes.] It was just a couple of different girls in high school, nothing that matters now. But the point is it sucks. I didn't mean to fuck you up like that.
...What, you liked girls in high school here like recently? [ they're not far enough out of high school that's weird but it is massively discouraging. ]
I took out stupid shit on people, yes. I flipped out on Nat when I remembered about my dad and I jerked you around for a while and both of those sucked.
John. Listen to me for a second, will you? [ his thumbs trace idly over john's cheeks, soothing. ] Yeah, that sucked. But for the part about me, you...you were really worth the wait. And the jerking around. It's okay.
[He's holding his breath but he's also leaning into Dave's touch.]
...you know you're always worth waiting for too, don't you? I made my decision about you even knowing that you weren't telling me everything and that there were problems you didn't want to address yet.
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[Whatever.] I shouldn't have tried dating you without dating you and Nanna told me it was fine if I was interested in guys and I kind of told her not to have dumb ideas.
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...you know you're always worth waiting for too, don't you? I made my decision about you even knowing that you weren't telling me everything and that there were problems you didn't want to address yet.
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Would you still be with me if someday never came?
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