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Oh, I'm a moron. You meant like an hour. Uh. One pm?

[ he MISUNDERSTOOD and thought dirk wanted to just block out a day together. ]

[Was that not the point. Hm. Dirk is considering this now that Dave thinks he is an idiot. Dave thinking he has BEEN an idiot is usually the moment when Dave is in fact in the act of committing idiocy.]

I meant an hour to start. [And then, like, not necessarily end.] How about we begin at 6AM? We can start crepuscular and move through the varieties.

Oh. I figured, uh, whenever we woke up and ate or whatever we could just...go after?

[ so he wasn't worried about the time when he was under the impression it was a full day thing. which...he wasn't wrong about apparently maybe???? please advise dirk ]

If you mean like a full day thing, and not just an allotment of time thing. Which both things are fine so?

I meant a full day thing. If that's the case, we'll just do when we wake up, yeah.

[This was unnecessary silliness but at least they clarified it?]

Oh, ok. That's...how I meant it too?

[ before backtracking when he thought dirk didn't mean it that way, because actually asking someone for an entire day might be Too Clingy. ]

So, pretty early in the morning probs.

Sounds good to me.

[He gives Dave an affectionate hair ruffle. This is important in the hug because at a certain point Dirk runs out of ways to increase proximity to Dave so ?? this is it.]

I'll pack food, you handle drinks?

[ the problem is dave's reaction to hair ruffles is either to take it or to automatically try to mess up dirk's hair sans warning which he does now? dirk? ]

That's a lot of trust you're puttin' in me, assumin' I'll pack oj in addition to aj.

[No he's going to try to catch those hands! even though it's first thing in the morning so who cares if his hair gets messed]

I trust you with everything but my good hair days.

[ ok then > execute hug command and > initiate sibling wrestling match ig enjoy that ]

You should absolutely trust me with those too? I'm a very trustworthy person, I know how you style your dumb anime hair?

That doesn't mean you'll do it?

[Well this is dumber than before, now.]

I've fixed your hair before!

[ directly after...messing it up......................... ]

After you messed it up.

[DAVE IS A HAIR-WRECKER!!]

Yeah. I like that I can.

[ it's actually said with a fond grin. sorry dirk. it's not even a speed thing: he just genuinely likes that he's allowed with little more than mild retaliation. ]

I know. This is why you haven't stopped being the baby brother in literal months, dude.

[Because, overlooking, you know, certain reasons involved in this, it is also a hugely baby brother move.]

I'd do it even if I were older.

[ but the grin flickers away to nothing as quickly as it came. ]

[A pause: Dirk signals time out.]

Did I say somethin'?

[He isn't sure if the grin flickered away for any particular reason. He would like to be clear if he did something dumb.]

[ dave will actually honor the time out and drop his hands to the bed? ]

No? [ or, well. ] Not really?

What part is the not really?

[He props his head up for this moment when he is not being attacked with dumb fraternal wrestling matches.]

[ time to flop back over for dave. ]

Uh. [ it's a buffering "uh", giving him time to consider it. ] I don't want you to take care of me? That is, not just - I want to take care of you, too. I don't actually know what it is? It's not like. A bad thing or really even a thing that upsets me. It's just a thought?

[ so it's unfocused and vague. ]

I don't want you to ever be an untouchable older brother.

[ there we go. ]

[Hm. He gives a nod.]

Settin' aside the very specific reference being made here, I've been told by more than one person that not relying on other people is not actually one of my best habits.

[He decides to flop down also, since the answer has been given, and now he's more contemplative.]

It's definitely something I have a problem with. You're one of the people I rely on the most, but I think even in that I could work to let you look after me more.

I think it's the same kinda reference you were tryin' to make the other day.

[ just a different subject. dirk sometimes hates that he feels like he can't reach dave in terms of strife. dave sometimes hates the times when dirk feels like a distant star. ]

But it's not like I'm very good at the opposite either, I guess. [ he doesn't always ask for help and doesn't always allow it to happen. ]

[He can appreciate the parallels.]

We're both workin' on it. You're letting me bring lunch, and I'm trusting you to get me some oj.

[That's a start! He turns his head to the side, enough to watch Dave.]

And I've been trying to text you when I feel... not my most ideal. Or lonely.

[ dave's still looking up at the top bunk, but he slaps his hand sideways to lightly hit dirk's arm. hold his hand or something, bro. ]

Obviously oj was gonna be packed. And I...appreciate it? [ that seems like a very small word for what it feels like when dirk actually asks dave for help. he wonders if that's the same way dirk feels when dave manages to ask. ] It's like callin' a black hole a pinprick. But, yeah, I - haven't felt...nothin'. Recently.

[Ow? Ow. Rude. He will hold that offending hand.]

Me either—uh, with my thing. [He almost never feels nothing. It's the problem.] Lonely hasn't really been an issue lately either. I can just come home and you're here.

[ it was light dirk will live?

dave transfers his gaze from the bottom of the top bunk to dirk, one of those nearly unreadable neutral expressions on his face, though it's softer than it sometimes is.

he tries to clarify why he brought it up. ]

If I did, though, I'd try to call you. [ he thinks he would? probably? ] I didn't just call for you on the Narcissus because you were there or because I knew I would. I didn't know that the entire time. And I wouldn't have always done that.

[ if he thinks about it, he can probably try to pinpoint the exact moment, but there might not even be one - when his first thought when he was overwhelmed with too many factors in a fight was to reach out and call for help. it wasn't always the case. ]

Oh. That reminds me I wanted to do somethin' you'll totally hate.

[ and then he ruins it but ]

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