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[splinten]

That part of it I did manage to understand, I think.

[Another pause. Hm.]

What you may not yet have come to appreciate, despite my frequent efforts to express it, is simply that while I am in favour of virtually every kind of clingy bullshit, it can be hard for me to discern what is permissible. Your blanket approval was a kind gesture, but it misses the mark in terms of my need to have specific actions okayed or vetoed to feel secure that I am not, to put it technically, turning everything completely fuckin' pear-shaped by acting things out.

[parodeity]

Wait wait wait.

[ this hand gesture is less vague, holding both palms up to stop dirk. ]

What kind of clingy bullshit are you not doin' that you aren't sure is permissible?

[splinten]

Nothin' really big.

[Uh.]

Hangin' out with you a little longer, mainly. Admittedly, we're in that situation right now, but this isn't the kind of hanging out I was thinking about.

[parodeity]

What kind were you thinkin' about?

[ dave you were supposed to be answering a question from dirk not asking him questions

oh well ]

[splinten]

[Er. Uh.]

More in the manner of sitting in one place discussing things, possibly watching something or engaging in stupid board games or the like. Not. Me sort of standing in a metaphorical doorway unsure when I will have overstayed your desire to be near me.

[parodeity]

Are...you standin' in a doorway rn.

[ um. ]

[splinten]

You told me to leave about five minutes ago?

[So. Yes.]

[parodeity]

Well yeah because I keep sayin' dumb shit.

[ save yourself? ]

And all weathermen at Dave TV agree that the forecast for foot in mouth syndrome is looking spectacular today. Like, if you want to witness that. Not if you want to avoid it. The outlook for avoiding it is pretty poor overall.

[splinten]

It isn't the kind of weather I feel any need to avoid.

[As he has mentioned: he is okay with Dave's toe fungus.]

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So, uh, which part. Did you not understand if you understood the clingy bullshit part?

[ circling back around. ]

[splinten]

[He'd been waiting for that loop.]

I understood that it was in some way clingy bullshit. What I don't think I fully grasped what was part of it was clingy, or exactly what the nature of the bullshit was.

[parodeity]

The worst ways? Or the weirdest ways. I would have liked to have been like...there.

[ illuminating ]

I'm not goin' to make this any clearer holy shit am I. Like - it's just one of those weird things? It isn't even a thing I mind? You've only said about - two, maybe three things that upset me and they weren't that.

[splinten]

[This isn't illuminating. Hold on. Let him work on this—no wait there's something that just set off every emergency services bell in his head.]

What did I say?

[HOW DID HE FUCK UP]

[parodeity]

Nothin'!

[ HE LITERALLY JUST SAID DIRK SAID SOMETHING, and yet. ]

But about the whole Avatar thing I just meant that I wish I'd like, been around when you decided you hated it and gotten to see that and hear what you thought and watch it with you. It was stupid?

[splinten]

[This does make sense and was the conclusion he was coming to.]

As idiotic as it may be, it isn't as if I've never felt similarly. What two-to-three things did I say that upset you?

[parodeity]

Nothing? I mean. An eye for an eye at worst. We're chill, Dirk, I didn't get, like, mad.

[ more importantly: ]

When have you felt similarly?

[splinten]

I'd still like to know.

[Errrr.]

It sounds stupid.

[Like everything they say doesn't sound stupid?]

[parodeity]

It wasn't fair.

[ also, while dirk is more interested in dave's thing dave is. more interested in dirk's thing lmao ]

Ok, but everythin' we ever say sounds stupid, so what is it? I gave you like five stormfronts where's mine in return?

[splinten]

Repeating the prior statement, I'd still like to know.

[Fair or not. As they go on this stupid line.]

Turntables.

[parodeity]

[ ok but consider dave just stares at dirk blankly. ]

What about turntables? I like them?

[splinten]

Right.

[This is why it's dumb. Goddammit.]

It... made me angry that he got to teach them to you. Instead of us learning them together. It felt unfair that he had that opportunity and never appreciated how lucky he was to get to have that kind of experience with you.

I did warn you of its stupidity.

[parodeity]

Oh.

[ well. uh. ]

If it helps it wasn't like teachin' by the kind of teachin' you do so much as like, doin' somethin' near me and expectin' me to catch on. But at least that wasn't, like, painful generally usually.

[ why the fuck would that help ]

[splinten]

[No, that doesn't help.]

The point is that I would have liked to have been there instead. The two of us dumb toddlers barely reaching the top of the turntables, spinnin' the vinyls without a clue what we were doing.

[parodeity]

I would've liked that too. But that's all it was. Realizin' that some things I just - already fullstop missed out on. Which is obvious? We're seventeen.

[ so. there was a lot to miss out on. duh. ]

I just didn't know how to word it.

[splinten]

You've managed to bring the idea across now, and I understand. We'll work on it.

[Also, Dirk is still standing in the metaphorical doorway since Dave... never gave him metaphorical permission to come in this is so stupid.]

How did I hurt you?