[ dirk has a feeling dave won't tell him. he's usually right about that kind of thing, and dave's neutral stare isn't very encouraging in that regard.
he's quiet for a fairly long time, considering.
then he proves dirk wrong at least this once. ]
...The two of them. [ reluctantly, he actually answers. ] Not really interested in hangin' around Rin, but that's a different sort of "don't want to". Kind of don't like hangin' around either troll at the moment.
[ karkat for obvious awkward reasons and kanaya because her moirail is komaeda and dave's not sure he trusts her to have their backs if it comes down to a choice. he feels bad thinking it, and hasn't vocalized it to rose, because who the hell would do that. it's a dumb thought. ]
[ dirk mostly knows that for sure. well, dave might tolerate people more? but admittedly not gelling with people he loves is a quick way to get him to bother less. ]
I'm contrasting the hyperrealism of the cookies with the cartoonishness of the Cookie Monster.
[It's art.]
Obviously you've hurt me and we've had disagreements, and I've hurt you back. Do you think I've been bad for you though? Because my opinion is that you've been good for me.
Ok, maybe that's the case re: cookies, but I think you just want some. Am I wrong?
[ he could be, but.
dave hums in thought. ]
I didn't say you haven't been. But I do think, like I thought back then, that no one deserves to have to listen to shit about...what I think or went through or any of it. I think it puts things on you that you shouldn't have to have on you. I do think your life would be better if I omitted that shit and you got the filtered crap and the good effects that would come from that. I'm not sayin' I will, but I do think that every time you find out anythin' else it just makes shit harder on you, and you don't deserve it. Probably it would be healthier if you didn't have to go through it.
It's a lot to handle. I'm not going to argue with that. It was a heavy thing to get confronted with. The thing is, when we talked, I'd basically decided I was an inherently toxic person who shouldn't be around anyone because all I was capable of was hurting them. You gave me a critique of the things I was anxious about, but it was fair-minded, and it allowed for a difference between me and the worst version of myself. I thought I already was that worst version, but you showed me that there was space for me to be someone else. Going from that, the more I learn, the easier it is for me to understand and assess myself more fairly. I've been able to become a person I kinda like, and that's because of you.
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he's quiet for a fairly long time, considering.
then he proves dirk wrong at least this once. ]
...The two of them. [ reluctantly, he actually answers. ] Not really interested in hangin' around Rin, but that's a different sort of "don't want to". Kind of don't like hangin' around either troll at the moment.
[ karkat for obvious awkward reasons and kanaya because her moirail is komaeda and dave's not sure he trusts her to have their backs if it comes down to a choice. he feels bad thinking it, and hasn't vocalized it to rose, because who the hell would do that. it's a dumb thought. ]
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Dirk leans over, and he hugs Dave.]
Thanks.
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Yeah, yeah. Just don't do anythin' stupid.
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You'd be an idiot about anyone I told you I disliked.
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[ dirk mostly knows that for sure. well, dave might tolerate people more? but admittedly not gelling with people he loves is a quick way to get him to bother less. ]
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[also he'll draw more cookie monster now i guess]
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[ than just going BY THE WAY, I CAN'T STAND BEING AROUND KOMAEDA? ]
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[btw the cookie monster is gonna end up cartoonish, but the cookies themselves will be bizarrely photorealistic.]
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Uh. In this situation it's you as "me". But wouldn't you not want to say if you hated, like, Hotaru.
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[ONLY MONSTERS CAN HATE HOTARU???]
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[ is that more accurate. ]
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[But then had to like them... because Dave did]
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[ HE'S PRETTY SURE? ]
And I never said to you that I trusted or liked certain people on that list. I just didn't say otherwise.
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[ at most he would have said they were "fine". ]
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[why does Dave get a hair ruffle for this.
why are Dirk's Cookie Monster cookies so hyperrealistic]
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[ this still being their relationship? lmao. ]
We have chocolate chips.
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[Ah yes, the defensive Southernness.]
...Okay? [Yay they have chocolate chips?]
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[ o b v i o u s l y. this time he doesn't immediately call dirk on his defensive southernness. ]
Do you or do you not want cookies?
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[ HE SENSES IT no seriously those cookies are way too well drawn? ]
And maybe I do, but I don't think I'm off the mark that I do have a negative one, too.
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[It's art.]
Obviously you've hurt me and we've had disagreements, and I've hurt you back. Do you think I've been bad for you though? Because my opinion is that you've been good for me.
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[ he could be, but.
dave hums in thought. ]
I didn't say you haven't been. But I do think, like I thought back then, that no one deserves to have to listen to shit about...what I think or went through or any of it. I think it puts things on you that you shouldn't have to have on you. I do think your life would be better if I omitted that shit and you got the filtered crap and the good effects that would come from that. I'm not sayin' I will, but I do think that every time you find out anythin' else it just makes shit harder on you, and you don't deserve it. Probably it would be healthier if you didn't have to go through it.
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[Cookies are cool? But.]
It's a lot to handle. I'm not going to argue with that. It was a heavy thing to get confronted with. The thing is, when we talked, I'd basically decided I was an inherently toxic person who shouldn't be around anyone because all I was capable of was hurting them. You gave me a critique of the things I was anxious about, but it was fair-minded, and it allowed for a difference between me and the worst version of myself. I thought I already was that worst version, but you showed me that there was space for me to be someone else. Going from that, the more I learn, the easier it is for me to understand and assess myself more fairly. I've been able to become a person I kinda like, and that's because of you.
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[ he will. respond to the other thing in a second they have to nail down this cookie thing here first clearly? ]
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