[ he could joke about it. ] Because you make me want to be better than I am, and you're one of the best people I know in a way that's just genuinely good and right and genuinely...you. And you think I am too. And sometimes completely on accident you say the things I remember most in life, usually without even thinking about it. Because you're sixteen and still build pillow forts and you make things seem okay.
[That's a heavy and serious answer and he goes quiet even if his breathing is a steady rhythm to follow and his hand's solid and warm across Dave's shoulders as it rubs in slow circular motions. This is apparently working and that's important and he thinks about how he has to be here for people like Dave and Vriska in any way that he can.
Even moreso though, Dave in particular's relying on him and he refuses to let him down.]
Of course I think you're one of the best people I know. I do not always agree with your choices and how you do things, but I admire a lot about you, dude. And you're a good person and want the best for everybody which is also important. [A beat.] Even if things don't always feel okay right now, they will be.
I know. Everything that could have gone wrong then went wrong and then some. I hate it. I hate how everything turned out, but you can't apologize for stuff that wasn't really on you.
I didn't manage to save Jade. [ but that's as useless as john saying he should have saved all of them. ] But yeah. In a perfect world we would have had time to do a lot more, maybe.
You tried. That was more than we could have asked of you, or any of us. Like...does it ever occur to you that we never knew what we were signing up for and that it just happened? It's weird sometimes.
Yeah, maybe after you finished up? [ for some reason he...didn't think he would do college, mostly because he had no earthly clue if bro wanted him to or not. HARD TO SAY. ]
Yeah. I mean, maybe. If she could stand us and you were down. And like. I don't know. I figured life would be...I figured it was possible we could like. Fall into a pattern. Holidays and normal days and whatever the fuck else. We could all of us argue about what to get for dinner or what movie to watch or when someone was leaving the place someone else could say hey pick up some shampoo for me or something really normal, you know?
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Even moreso though, Dave in particular's relying on him and he refuses to let him down.]
Of course I think you're one of the best people I know. I do not always agree with your choices and how you do things, but I admire a lot about you, dude. And you're a good person and want the best for everybody which is also important. [A beat.] Even if things don't always feel okay right now, they will be.
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