I know. Everything that could have gone wrong then went wrong and then some. I hate it. I hate how everything turned out, but you can't apologize for stuff that wasn't really on you.
I didn't manage to save Jade. [ but that's as useless as john saying he should have saved all of them. ] But yeah. In a perfect world we would have had time to do a lot more, maybe.
You tried. That was more than we could have asked of you, or any of us. Like...does it ever occur to you that we never knew what we were signing up for and that it just happened? It's weird sometimes.
Yeah, maybe after you finished up? [ for some reason he...didn't think he would do college, mostly because he had no earthly clue if bro wanted him to or not. HARD TO SAY. ]
Yeah. I mean, maybe. If she could stand us and you were down. And like. I don't know. I figured life would be...I figured it was possible we could like. Fall into a pattern. Holidays and normal days and whatever the fuck else. We could all of us argue about what to get for dinner or what movie to watch or when someone was leaving the place someone else could say hey pick up some shampoo for me or something really normal, you know?
[There's a low hum of contemplation.] I do not see how it would be a bad thing for me here. I think you and I are working out pretty much how I expected. It's nice. I like having you around.
[ and there's one of those stupid phrases that's going to stick. because i like having you around is simple but it's also something no one he's ever lived with has ever said to him.
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obvious reasons. there's a tentative smile hidden against john's shirt but whatever. ]
Yeah? [ like, no, dave didn't know that. and he's asking why it makes sense to john, but. ] It's less stressful to have you where I can check on you, anyway.
[ hahaha that clearly won't ever be a thing that will ever come back to bite him ]
[Why would something bad ever happen to them???] Very funny. I'm not the only one prone to wondering off, douche. [But he shrugs a little.] I guess it makes sense because I like being able to hang out all the time anyway, so coming back to the same place makes it easier.
Bro didn't really have your homemaker vibe. With like, the cooking and stuff. [ "and stuff" here meaning "wanting me around and not being an abusive asshole". ] It's...nice.
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I like having you here. [ that suffices for an instead. ]
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I don't know if it's the best thing for you, or if I'm the greatest roommate. But I like having you here.
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obvious reasons. there's a tentative smile hidden against john's shirt but whatever. ]
You're kind of my favorite.
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[ hahaha that clearly won't ever be a thing that will ever come back to bite him ]
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