[ uhhh. honestly it’s more the positioning that seems a little #intense john why are you pinning dave to the car? this is awkward and he’s eighteen and fuck off.
but he’s used to matching john’s pace when he can and he’s pretty sure John doesn’t mean anything by it so he just adjusts to get a grip on john’s shoulders, and he lets his feet drop to the ground since yeah.
hm. his left hand brushes some of john’s bangs aside, pointless and soothing. ]
Yeah, I know. You don’t have to reassure me about that. [ ...maybe. he’s forever less certain john wants him on levels other than best friends. ] Seriously, it’s okay.
[Yeah he doesn't even think about the positioning, it's just easier to see Dave this way. He just knows he wants Dave to listen to him and to keep him close and he leans into the touch a little.]
I know, but I mean that. [He apparently seems to think he has to assure him of that based on what just happened.] I want to tell you about stuff but this was a good night. [So he doesn't want to risk fucking up.] Can we go home and go to bed?
[ john is sweet but tends to pick the wrong things to worry about reassuring dave on, good job John. dave would kiss him but 1) john is serious and worried and 2) slow and 3) he’s pretty sure John isn’t thinking about that. ]
Tell me if it ever does? [He has no idea what he's doing other than distracting them, hand coming up to cup Dave's face instead.] But I wouldn't call it a habit. [He lets his thumb run over Dave's cheek before he lets go and steps back, pulling Dave with him a bit so he can open his car door.]
So more of a hobby. [ he’ll slide into the car though. he’d stayed perfectly still while john touched him, expression inscrutable behind his shades but breathing calm and uncontrolled. ]
I'm still cashing in on good night kisses, bro. You're not getting out of that? [John maybe shut up.] Sorry. That was a dumb question, I know, I'm just...dude, I was freaking out a lot earlier. And I don't want to mess this up. And boundaries and stuff?
I already told you mine for right now and they are subject to change because you’re you. But it’s just...[SIGH.] Did you know fifteen year old me flipped out about respecting people’s boundaries too? That was something.
Which part do you want to hear first, the part where I yelled at Jade that she and Davesprite were our rock or the part where I yelled in my driveway at the sky about how Davesprite was a shitty replacement for the real you? [Sigh.] It was a mess. A really hot mess. I threw a fucking tantrum on my birthday.
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but he’s used to matching john’s pace when he can and he’s pretty sure John doesn’t mean anything by it so he just adjusts to get a grip on john’s shoulders, and he lets his feet drop to the ground since yeah.
hm. his left hand brushes some of john’s bangs aside, pointless and soothing. ]
Yeah, I know. You don’t have to reassure me about that. [ ...maybe. he’s forever less certain john wants him on levels other than best friends. ] Seriously, it’s okay.
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I know, but I mean that. [He apparently seems to think he has to assure him of that based on what just happened.] I want to tell you about stuff but this was a good night. [So he doesn't want to risk fucking up.] Can we go home and go to bed?
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Yeah. You too tired to drive or...?
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No, of course not. It's just back to the dorm, it's fine. Ready?
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You’re pinning me to the car. We are sort of waitin’ on you here, not me. [ like. ]
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Yeah. I know. Sorry. [He's grinning though so he's not that sorry.]
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[ like should he get used to it??? ]
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Let's go home.
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Probably. [At least he's honest.] Just the pinning, I am serious about everything else. [Sigh. But he'll at least put the car in drive to head back.]
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...can I make kissing you a habit and stuff?
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[AHHHHHH.]
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