...my neighbor across the street had a really cute dog that used to like rolling around in the grass. The people next door, their kids would always bike or rollerblade on the sidewalk up and down the street. People watering their lawns. Flowers. People coming home.
...cracked planets. Broken buildings. Red strings? [Red miles. He doesn't know that term though and he's confusing the there and the then with what he knows this memory used to be.]
[ something about what john says before the part about their past, cracked planets and broken buildings and red strings, causes dave to look at him, silent and trying to figure it out. ]
[Dave lets go of his hand and he doesn't immediately touch the ground again. He floats, unsure of where to go because there's another person here. Usually when this happens he searches forever.
"I needed to find someone." It could have been anyone and he would have been satisfied.
Very slowly he touches down to the ground and sort of keeps going until he sits with his back to the wall of the window.]
...so hey, why the fuck can I fly in my dreams but I can't fly in real life yet? [That's good, John, play it off.]
[ dave breathes out, slow. there’s a sort of desperate relief john didn’t disappear. ] It’s a dream. So maybe it’s because you remember you can and forget you can’t.
Yeah. Maybe! That would make sense. [It's reaching optimism and he's doing his best to seem upbeat. He doesn't quite look Dave in the eye as he hears another collision in the distance.]
...not as exciting as yours, I know. [Thank fuck. Let's not fight more puppets, thank you. There's another flicker again though. 13. 16. 18.]
Yeah. [...yeah, about that.] I could see the driveway from my bedroom window, too, but this was easier because I could see the street. So for a long time I sat up here whenever I could waiting and watching the road.
[ that this worlds version of dad left. that he remembers being so fucking jealous of john having a dad who would have done anything for him, and that isn’t so true now. that john will remember his dad dying, someday. ]
I shouldn't be dreaming about this shit. It's been years. I know how this goes usually. Either I'm in the treehouse and the walls close in, I climb down the ladder and walk to where the sidewalk ends and there's a wall, or I finally spot a car that looks like his, lean out the window too far and fall.
[An eyeroll.] I broke my arm doing that. Nanna said I was lucky it wasn't my head. So anyway...yeah. It's a stupid dream and I never get where I need to go.
I don’t think dreams ever stop when they’re about shit that cut you to the core.
[ it’s wry and quiet and too honest and maybe he should say something soothing about how you get over things, but he remembers bro and can’t rven begin to voice the lie. you learn to move anyway, maybe. ]
We can’t fight this kind of thing. So...let’s pick a new place to go.
Hm. [ before he entered the game himself or after? it doesn’t matter. ] Okay, flyboy, think about the part after the fire, then. Let’s go somewhere a little more...something. Can we?
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[ "everything", yes, but some specific everything? ]
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...cracked planets. Broken buildings. Red strings? [Red miles. He doesn't know that term though and he's confusing the there and the then with what he knows this memory used to be.]
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If I let go of your hand, are you goin' to leave?
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[ than the correction, he means. ]
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I had planned on it before you showed up because I needed to find someone.
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"I needed to find someone." It could have been anyone and he would have been satisfied.
Very slowly he touches down to the ground and sort of keeps going until he sits with his back to the wall of the window.]
...so hey, why the fuck can I fly in my dreams but I can't fly in real life yet? [That's good, John, play it off.]
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...not as exciting as yours, I know. [Thank fuck. Let's not fight more puppets, thank you. There's another flicker again though. 13. 16. 18.]
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Can I ask?
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About? [So yes.]
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[ or people not? ]
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[ that this worlds version of dad left. that he remembers being so fucking jealous of john having a dad who would have done anything for him, and that isn’t so true now. that john will remember his dad dying, someday. ]
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I shouldn't be dreaming about this shit. It's been years. I know how this goes usually. Either I'm in the treehouse and the walls close in, I climb down the ladder and walk to where the sidewalk ends and there's a wall, or I finally spot a car that looks like his, lean out the window too far and fall.
[An eyeroll.] I broke my arm doing that. Nanna said I was lucky it wasn't my head. So anyway...yeah. It's a stupid dream and I never get where I need to go.
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[ it’s wry and quiet and too honest and maybe he should say something soothing about how you get over things, but he remembers bro and can’t rven begin to voice the lie. you learn to move anyway, maybe. ]
We can’t fight this kind of thing. So...let’s pick a new place to go.
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The subconscious is fucking weird, dude.
[But.] Where would you want to go if you had a choice?
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The dorm. [ wry and sarcastic and completely honest. ] But close your eyes and think of fireflies instead.
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Fireflies? Why?
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My planet? [Yes, thank you for joining the conversation, John.] I only remember a little of it. Including the time it was on fire.
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[ maybe john will flicker less if he can talk them into being anywhere else. ]
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[He remembered that only a few days ago. He never bothered telling Dave that.]
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