[There's a grin. Yes, he knows Dave's hot. So what. But he's also tilting his head back to look at the stars below them and also just stretching himself out.]
I mean...that has pretty much been me in our whole relationship. I can't complain about that. Do I get a hint what those things are, or am I going in blind?
No. Like...it did at first in the way where we were both scared? Of fucking up. But like - I don't know, it's not...scary, exactly, even if nerves still exist. It's awkward sometimes and funny others and maybe sometimes it is a little scary, but it's...you know, enjoyable. Does that make sense?
...yeah. Yeah, I think so. The journey is a lot easier to make together than us just stressing ourselves out. [Close enough.] It's a lot less worrying about scaring the other person off or thinking the other person would think we're weird or whatever.
Anyway, I already got past the scariest part of telling you I want to have sex, so. Hey-o. [ well actually at the time he specified handjobs or something and not sex but whatever. ] You know, it's a good thing neither of us is scared of heights.
You're at least getting better about saying the word sex so I can give you some credit. [He grins even as he looks below again.] I feel like being afraid of heights would contradict being able to fly. But I think you like it up here just as much as I do.
I've always liked heights. And as to the rest... [ shut up????? ] Shut up. And also I figured if I want to ask you for shit it should be shit I can say.
Your place back then was really high up so I don't doubt it. [There's a nod.] I think that's a pretty good policy to follow, too. We're both adults, dude. Gotta use our words and stuff.
You're a grave robber come the third of december, obviously. A teenager, young and innocent. [ he's joking. ] You know I do, though, right? Want to have sex with you. Not this second but like.
No, not really. [It's true, actually, and he thinks to himself. The prospect is actually sort of terrifying just while he's thinking logistics, but it's always better when he doesn't. Do. That.]
...we've been together for almost a year. And I obviously love and trust you more than anyone else in the world so if I was going to do that with anybody it'd be you in the first place. I mean I don't. [Ugh.] ...you know I've slept with Vic and that all made sense. I don't really know...see it sounds really fucking dumb if I say "I don't really know how anal works" since it seems pretty straight forward but like.
[Fumbling. He's just trying to figure out how to say "I don't know how to know if it'll be good for you when I'm clueless."]
Okay, if I wanted to give you a hard time I'd point out you just said having sex with a girl made sense while accidentally implying guys don't, [ so he kind of wants to give john a hard time ] but like...did it really, your first time?
[ it's not the sort of thing anyone figured out immediately and flawlessly, dave thinks. ]
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I mean...that has pretty much been me in our whole relationship. I can't complain about that. Do I get a hint what those things are, or am I going in blind?
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But yeah, I know. We've already done it a couple of times. [John's maybe not quite getting the point here.]
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Oh. [Yeah, okay, now he got it. He blinks slowly but...right.] ...yeah. Okay. Got it. That's...a thing, yes. [That's very reassuring.]
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...for your birthday? [Curious.]
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...we've been together for almost a year. And I obviously love and trust you more than anyone else in the world so if I was going to do that with anybody it'd be you in the first place. I mean I don't. [Ugh.] ...you know I've slept with Vic and that all made sense. I don't really know...see it sounds really fucking dumb if I say "I don't really know how anal works" since it seems pretty straight forward but like.
[Fumbling. He's just trying to figure out how to say "I don't know how to know if it'll be good for you when I'm clueless."]
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[ it's not the sort of thing anyone figured out immediately and flawlessly, dave thinks. ]
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