recollé ic inbox 6.0;

[parodeity]

DAVE STRIDER

consider this your warning about stairs. itll just keep happening bro. im telling you man

VOICE | TEXT | VIDEO | ACTION

Comments

[parodeity]

No. Like...it did at first in the way where we were both scared? Of fucking up. But like - I don't know, it's not...scary, exactly, even if nerves still exist. It's awkward sometimes and funny others and maybe sometimes it is a little scary, but it's...you know, enjoyable. Does that make sense?

[windeity]

...yeah. Yeah, I think so. The journey is a lot easier to make together than us just stressing ourselves out. [Close enough.] It's a lot less worrying about scaring the other person off or thinking the other person would think we're weird or whatever.

[parodeity]

Anyway, I already got past the scariest part of telling you I want to have sex, so. Hey-o. [ well actually at the time he specified handjobs or something and not sex but whatever. ] You know, it's a good thing neither of us is scared of heights.

[windeity]

You're at least getting better about saying the word sex so I can give you some credit. [He grins even as he looks below again.] I feel like being afraid of heights would contradict being able to fly. But I think you like it up here just as much as I do.

[parodeity]

I've always liked heights. And as to the rest... [ shut up????? ] Shut up. And also I figured if I want to ask you for shit it should be shit I can say.

[windeity]

Your place back then was really high up so I don't doubt it. [There's a nod.] I think that's a pretty good policy to follow, too. We're both adults, dude. Gotta use our words and stuff.

[parodeity]

You're a grave robber come the third of december, obviously. A teenager, young and innocent. [ he's joking. ] You know I do, though, right? Want to have sex with you. Not this second but like.

[windeity]

[He makes a face.] I'm not that innocent, thanks. [He knows Dave's just joking though.]

But yeah, I know. We've already done it a couple of times. [John's maybe not quite getting the point here.]

[parodeity]

John. [ he's not but dave is used to that. ] I'll give you a few minutes to catch up?

[windeity]

What exactly am I missing here?

[parodeity]

The part where I want to have sex with you mostly. You're kind of oblivious.

[windeity]

No. I got that. That was what the blowjobs and everything was all about. [...he's...almost there.]

[parodeity]

[ dave throws a sandwich piece at john... ] Okay, how about I want to have anal sex with you and you understand what I'm saying?????

[windeity]

[On instinct he catches the sandwich in his mouth, but he also kind of chokes because oh.]

Oh. [Yeah, okay, now he got it. He blinks slowly but...right.] ...yeah. Okay. Got it. That's...a thing, yes. [That's very reassuring.]

[parodeity]

...like, if you want to. [ he kind of snorted in laughter at john almost choking himself. true love. ]

[windeity]

...I mean...I'm interested in doing things with you that I wouldn't do with anyone else. That included. [Way to totally fluster him though =\]

[parodeity]

Now who can't say it? [ he's pleased he's not the only flustered one. ] That's what I want then.

[windeity]

[SHUT UP DAVE. But yeah, that's....fair.]

...for your birthday? [Curious.]

[parodeity]

[ no he won't shut up ] Yeah. [ that's not Right Now by its soonish. ] Is that weird?

[windeity]

No, not really. [It's true, actually, and he thinks to himself. The prospect is actually sort of terrifying just while he's thinking logistics, but it's always better when he doesn't. Do. That.]

...we've been together for almost a year. And I obviously love and trust you more than anyone else in the world so if I was going to do that with anybody it'd be you in the first place. I mean I don't. [Ugh.] ...you know I've slept with Vic and that all made sense. I don't really know...see it sounds really fucking dumb if I say "I don't really know how anal works" since it seems pretty straight forward but like.

[Fumbling. He's just trying to figure out how to say "I don't know how to know if it'll be good for you when I'm clueless."]

[parodeity]

Okay, if I wanted to give you a hard time I'd point out you just said having sex with a girl made sense while accidentally implying guys don't, [ so he kind of wants to give john a hard time ] but like...did it really, your first time?

[ it's not the sort of thing anyone figured out immediately and flawlessly, dave thinks. ]

[windeity]

Shut up. [:(! But he actually takes more than five seconds to think about it.]

...okay, so maybe it didn't make a whole lot of sense the first time either. Actually the first time was kind of a disaster? Like. Stupidly so. It eventually got better though.

[parodeity]

[ dave pulls a face, either to mock john or because he's not interested in hearing about sex with other people getting better while trying to ask his boyfriend to sleep with him. probably leaning to the latter, but he doesn't comment. instead he says. ]

You're overthinking it.

[windeity]

[Things John probably should have actually finished saying: "it got better, so that would mean sex with you would also get better if I fuck it up."

John's great at this.]

I am, yeah. [He can at least admit that.] I promise I will stop overthinking it. Really. [At least by the time it gets to Dave's birthday. He has time.]

[parodeity]

...now I'm overthinking it. [ which he can at least admit. dave shakes his head. it's not really worth wondering about. ] I'm not sure how much more I can eat?