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[parodeity]

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[parodeity]

dang thats a lot of sisters
maybe youll get to remember more about them?
eventually i mean

[notyourutopian]

...That would be a nice change, yeah.
Who knows.

[parodeity]

i think my happiest memory
was getting my shades
the ones i wear now i mean
they were a present for my thirteenth birthday

[notyourutopian]

I would say that explains why you never take them off but.
I can't actually remember you not having shades on before all this either.

[parodeity]

its hard to remember when i didnt
like once i started up bc of this shit
it was second nature

[notyourutopian]

Yeah.
Isn't that odd?
I use my TK all the time like...
For basic silly things.
It feels so bizarre to think that for most of my life I didn't do that.

[parodeity]

no its like
idk
it seems like a lifetime ago before all of this happened doesnt it
even though we havent quite hit a year yet

[notyourutopian]

It does.
Almost like another lifetime.

Which...is rather worrying now that I think about it.

[parodeity]

how quick we acclimated to weird being the norm you mean
?

[notyourutopian]

Mm. Yes and no.

Yes in the sense that we do seem to be adjusting but

No, more in the sense that they are shoving other people into our brains. How long before we're more them than us.

[parodeity]

idk if its other people
or rather
im already that guy

[notyourutopian]

Are you?
Were you him before all this?
Do you even remember the difference?

[parodeity]

yes
i know exactly the difference between the two

[notyourutopian]

You seem so sure
What's the difference then?

[parodeity]

just something in our experiences

[notyourutopian]

Mm.

I just
I don't want to turn into her.

[parodeity]

whats she like
that you done want that

[notyourutopian]

[There's a delay.]

Angry.
And
Violent.

I've seen her kill people.

[parodeity]

yeah
thats a hard thing to remember yourself doing

[notyourutopian]

Yeah...
And I think I understand why she's doing it but.
I don't want to feel that way.
But I know it's there.

[parodeity]

you dont want to know youre capable of those things

[notyourutopian]

[There's a delay.]

It's.

...

I'm pretty sure I already am.

[parodeity]

yeah
i am too

[notyourutopian]

Bloody hell.
Heh
I can't say this is what I thought I'd be worrying about this time last year.

[parodeity]

same
it would be nice to worry about things not this
but it is what it is you know