i do not know what's going on. and i am not going to ask because i think you probably would not tell me. but i get it. i can look into moving out if it is seriously bothering you enough.
i need remedial human lessons ill stop roofsurfing when i relearn how to not be a robot or when i get annoyed with being cold the second is actually way more likely than the first but w/e
im joking ftr ive just got a lot of shifts atm and ill be in and out a lot i picked up a new math student in the chaos of the past few days and like ten extra shifts
[ there have been absolutely no delays on dave's end, to a weird as fuck degree. it shouldn't be possible to type and send messages as quickly as he does. ]
you too
if you want me to move out ever i can though say the word and ill ghost and not harass you at all
oh my god. i cannot tell if you're fucking with me or not. i am the one who just said we could fix the housing thing, why in the fuck would i want you to move out?
you really are, actually. but i kind of like it? like. i don't know. you seem kind of chill when you are not driving me crazy and i want to get to know you better but it is kind of impossible when you are doing stuff like this. so like. i get it? sort of? i am a pretty weird and cagey person sometimes, too, and i think that is probably part of the problem. and you keep saying things like that and somehow i am sure you are sincere which is the really weird part? but i don't know. i do not have a good read on people. and i want to change that. ok? so maybe that is actually my own problem, i do not know. maybe i am doing this wrong? i don't know. i don't know how to make friends like a normal person anymore and then there is all of this bullshit with people talking about memories and superpowers that i also want to understand. oh my god never mind this is way too many words.
haha what you know how to make friends fine john we could drop you in a room of strangers and i guarantee youd be having a friendly chat with one or all of them in two seconds flat i mean granted same but its different with you maybe its skewed a little to the right but you care about people and i think that tends to be the important thing when it comes to friends even if you are cagey which is weird but not so weird its this thing about you though the friend thing its not like youre some incorruptible nice angel but youre a good person who wants to get to know people and people respond to that i think its something i admire
anyway im not avoiding you or the room specifically and you arent fucking up so chill
hey did you ever hear as a kid that if you hang upside down long enough youll get smarter bc of the blood going to your head why are kids the way they are
because the internet likes to lie to us, probably. also that definitely did not work, i was not any smarter after i spent every recess for a week hanging from the monkey bars.
anyway. i don't know what to say to that that isn't weird. so i think this is where i will just say "thanks" and leave it as it is. but duh it is not hard to be nice to people and chat with them if people are willing. it is a complicated thing. and i...also do not know how to respond to that.
so yeah. okay. this is embarrassing and i should maybe chill. you are probably right?
am i? i dont know i used to chart wrong and right based on three different pillars now i do it mostly on my own and i fuck it up a lot i havent decided yet what that means
i dont think anything you said was that embarrassing
you know what i think i think seasonal flavors shouldnt just be seasonal
probably that you are human? humans fuck up a lot. and sometimes when humans fuck up, other people get fucked up, so it's a giant cycle of fucks. like a round robin of fucks. but you have not exactly fucked up yet so i think you are fine? do not quote me on that yet i think we are still in the trial period of friendship.
also maybe not but it was pretty dumb.
i have a countdown on my phone for when peppermint season starts.
cool. i've always wanted an alien friend. being human is pretty overrated anyway.
are you?
there are definitely places pushing christmas already. i don't like pumpkin that much anyway so i would be fine blowing past that. halloween is pretty acceptable though.
um. ok? robot friend, then. i can deal with that, too.
see that is still very strange to me since i have known you for like a week and you've already decided this. then again i sort of decided after the first day and now i am just confusing myself.
wal-mart probably has candy canes out by now? also do you not have normal candy stores here?
and i mean i do not like pumpkin that much! pumpkin spice is ok? i think i have officially been turned off by those though.
they taste best when youre cold and looking at something cool idk man dont you have drinks that you associate with good things like the pumpkin lattes just even thinking about them calls up like ten million memories arguing about them or sitting on the bench near the observatory people watching or doing late night cram sessions with as much sugar as humanly possible ive never liked energy drinks so caffeine is my go to
like stars or whales or people. and yeah of course i do but pumpkin spice is not one of them anymore. i am rebuilding my pumpkin-flavored memory bank to fill with good shit and not shit i find annoying now. that is because energy drinks hardly provide enough caffeine to do anything, plus they taste like shit. what's the observatory like here anyway? any good?
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9/6, later after the info post, not a misfire
and i am not going to ask because i think you probably would not tell me.
but i get it.
i can look into moving out if it is seriously bothering you enough.
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why blue
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so. i am asking.
i like blue. felt like a good color.
took some notes. that kind of thing.
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ill stop roofsurfing when i relearn how to not be a robot
or when i get annoyed with being cold
the second is actually way more likely than the first but w/e
im joking ftr
ive just got a lot of shifts atm and ill be in and out a lot
i picked up a new math student in the chaos of the past few days and like ten extra shifts
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that sounds a little more plausible at least.
take it easy then, i guess.
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you too
if you want me to move out ever i can though
say the word and ill ghost and not harass you at all
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i cannot tell if you're fucking with me or not.
i am the one who just said we could fix the housing thing, why in the fuck would i want you to move out?
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?
that was a question
or a statement
im not sure which it was one of the two
anyway im incapable of wanting to ditch you permanently
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but i kind of like it? like. i don't know. you seem kind of chill when you are not driving me crazy and i want to get to know you better but it is kind of impossible when you are doing stuff like this.
so like. i get it? sort of? i am a pretty weird and cagey person sometimes, too, and i think that is probably part of the problem.
and you keep saying things like that and somehow i am sure you are sincere which is the really weird part? but i don't know.
i do not have a good read on people.
and i want to change that.
ok?
so maybe that is actually my own problem, i do not know.
maybe i am doing this wrong?
i don't know. i don't know how to make friends like a normal person anymore and then there is all of this bullshit with people talking about memories and superpowers that i also want to understand.
oh my god never mind this is way too many words.
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you know how to make friends fine
john we could drop you in a room of strangers and i guarantee youd be having a friendly chat with one or all of them in two seconds flat
i mean granted same but its different with you
maybe its skewed a little to the right but you care about people
and i think that tends to be the important thing when it comes to friends
even if you are cagey
which is weird but not so weird
its this thing about you though
the friend thing
its not like youre some incorruptible nice angel but youre a good person
who wants to get to know people
and people respond to that i think
its something i admire
anyway im not avoiding you or the room specifically
and you arent fucking up
so chill
hey did you ever hear as a kid that if you hang upside down long enough youll get smarter bc of the blood going to your head
why are kids the way they are
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also that definitely did not work, i was not any smarter after i spent every recess for a week hanging from the monkey bars.
anyway. i don't know what to say to that that isn't weird. so i think this is where i will just say "thanks" and leave it as it is.
but duh it is not hard to be nice to people and chat with them if people are willing.
it is a complicated thing.
and i...also do not know how to respond to that.
so yeah. okay. this is embarrassing and i should maybe chill.
you are probably right?
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i dont know
i used to chart wrong and right based on three different pillars
now i do it mostly on my own
and i fuck it up a lot
i havent decided yet what that means
i dont think anything you said was that embarrassing
you know what i think
i think
seasonal flavors shouldnt just be seasonal
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but you have not exactly fucked up yet so i think you are fine? do not quote me on that yet i think we are still in the trial period of friendship.
also maybe not but it was pretty dumb.
i have a countdown on my phone for when peppermint season starts.
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sometimes yes sometimes no
anyway i think im the only one in the trial period
if its already halloween in stores i fail to see why it cant also be christmas
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being human is pretty overrated anyway.
are you?
there are definitely places pushing christmas already. i don't like pumpkin that much anyway so i would be fine blowing past that.
halloween is pretty acceptable though.
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well thats not the word i want to use
but im not gonna use the other so w/e
yeah
youve never been on trial
where the fuck are the christmas stores
i want a candycane
also what the fuck do you mean you dont like pumpkin
do you at least like it in pumpkin spice lattes
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see that is still very strange to me since i have known you for like a week and you've already decided this. then again i sort of decided after the first day and now i am just confusing myself.
wal-mart probably has candy canes out by now? also do you not have normal candy stores here?
and i mean i do not like pumpkin that much! pumpkin spice is ok? i think i have officially been turned off by those though.
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[ he's offended about the pumpkin spice latte thing and is ignoring the rest for now. ]
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i like them buried in caramel
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at what point does it stop being pumpkin spice and more caramel bullshit though?
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hey
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that lack of an answer is also less than convincing.
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idk man dont you have drinks that you associate with good things
like the pumpkin lattes just even thinking about them calls up like
ten million memories arguing about them or sitting on the bench near the observatory people watching
or doing late night cram sessions with as much sugar as humanly possible
ive never liked energy drinks so caffeine is my go to
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and yeah of course i do but pumpkin spice is not one of them anymore.
i am rebuilding my pumpkin-flavored memory bank to fill with good shit and not shit i find annoying now.
that is because energy drinks hardly provide enough caffeine to do anything, plus they taste like shit.
what's the observatory like here anyway? any good?
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