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dirks literally the only person alive those work for
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UGH ALRIGHT.
HERE'S THE THING.
WE KEEP HAVING THESE CONVERSATIONS, AND THEN THE MOMENT ONE OF US GETS UPSET, WE CUT THEM OFF.
AND THEN WE STOP TALKING FOR A WEEK OR TWO. WHICH IS, YOU KNOW, FINE.
EXCEPT THEN WE KEEP STARTING OVER FROM THE BEGINNING AND THE CYCLE JUST REPEATS AGAIN AND AGAIN AND AGAIN.
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just forget about them
you couldnt even really stick to them so lets forget the experiment
those do seem to be the facts yeah
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BUT YOU KIND OF JUST GAVE ME THE LIST AND THEN PROCEEDED TO NEVER DISCUSS IT EVER AGAIN.
AND I KNOW YOU ACTUALLY ACTIVELY SPOKE WITH DIRK WHEN YOU WERE DEALING WITH YOUR THING.
YOU KNOW, WHEN WE DID THAT BOARD GAME THING WITH THE OTHERS?
I APPRECIATE DIRK FOR STEPPING IN TO HELP US.
BUT AS SOON AS HE DID, YOU BASICALLY JUST STOPPED TALKING TO ME AT ALL AND DIRECTED EVERYTHING AT HIM UNLESS HE MADE YOU TALK TO ME.
AND I THINK THAT WAS WHEN IT REALLY STARTED TO HIT ME HOW EXTREMELY FUCKED UP ALL OF THIS IS.
BECAUSE UNTIL THEN I STILL HAD THIS HOPE THAT WE'D DATE AGAIN? AND I KNOW IT'S STUPID OF ME TO BE AIMING FOR THAT WHEN WE WERE SUPPOSED TO BE FOCUSING ON OUR FRIENDSHIP.
BUT IT MADE ME REALIZE THAT YOU
DON'T REALLY WANT THE SAME THING.
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I MEAN THAT, IF YOU DON'T WANT TO TALK ABOUT STUFF THEN FINE.
IT'S JUST THAT IF WE NEVER TALK ABOUT ANYTHING THEN THIS DUMB CYCLE IS JUST GOING TO KEEP HAPPENING OVER AND OVER.
AND I GUESS YOU SEEM TO BE
OK WITH THAT??
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you dont get why its different
you think you do but you really dont im pretty sure
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JUST THAT I AM AWARE THAT IT IS.
AND OF COURSE I DON'T KNOW WHY BECAUSE I AM PRETTY AWARE THAT I'M NOT ALLOWED TO KNOW ANYTHING ANYMORE.
AND AGAIN, I DESERVE THAT!
I JUST REALLY DON'T WANT TO LOSE YOU.
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i dont really care
what do you want to talk about
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IT'S NOT LIKE I CAME HERE WITH A LIST PREPARED OR ANYTHING.
CAN I TELL YOU SOMETHING THAT I'VE ONLY TOLD KANAYA BEFORE?
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are you sure you actually want to
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I KIND OF NEED TO IN ORDER FOR THIS TO MAKE SENSE SO IT WON'T COME OFF AS MY USUAL COMPLAINING.
YOU KNOW OUR DENIZENS? MINE WAS REALLY... PATHETIC.
I MEAN THAT LITERALLY. IT WAS THIS TINY, WEAK THING THAT LOOKED LIKE YOU COULD BEAT IT AT LEVEL FUCKING ONE.
IT WAS UNBEARABLY EASY TO DEFEAT.
I THOUGHT THAT THE GAME WAS JUST MOCKING ME? TRYING TO TELL ME THAT I WASN'T FIT FOR THE POSITION OF THE LEADER.
BUT I GUESS NOW IT JUST THOUGHT THAT THE ONLY WAY I WOULD BE ABLE TO DO ANYTHING WAS IF IT MADE IT AS WEAK AS POSSIBLE.
IT KIND OF STUNG THAT THIS GAME, THAT WAS CREATED TO BE DIFFICULT AS ALL FUCK TO GET THROUGH, FELT SORRY ENOUGH FOR ME TO DO THAT.
LIKE I WASN'T A PLAYER THAT REALLY MATTERED?
I KNOW THAT BLOOD COLOR SHIT DOESN'T REALLY MATTER TO YOU OR ANYONE ELSE HERE.
BUT DO YOU KNOW WHAT IT'S LIKE TO SPEND YOUR ENTIRE LIFE KNOWING THAT YOU'RE SOME FREAK OF NATURE IN YOUR SOCIETY AND THAT THE MOMENT ANYONE FOUND OUT, THEY WOULD CULL YOU?
SO I HAD TO TRY REALLY, *REALLY* HARD TO MAKE SURE I WAS A REAL TROLL. SO THAT NO ONE WOULD EXPECT OTHERWISE.
AND SEEING THAT DENIZEN MADE ME REALIZE JUST HOW WORTHLESS ALL THAT WORK I DID WAS.
BY THE TIME WE GOT TO THE FINAL BATTLE I THOUGHT I WAS OVER IT?
I WAS GOOD WITH BEING THE SIDEKICK. IT WAS FINE.
AND THEN WE GOT HERE, AND ALL OF YOU GUYS HAVE BEEN KICKING ASS?
DISCOVERING THE KHARAA AND TALKING WITH THE EMPEROR AND SEA DRAGON AND ALL OF THAT.
MEANWHILE ALL OF MY CONTRIBUTIONS WERE FROM ME SCREWING UP AND SOMEHOW GETTING SOMETHING USEFUL OUT OF IT ACCIDENTALLY.
IT WAS KIND OF JUST CONSTANT REMINDERS, OVER AND OVER AGAIN, THAT I'M JUST A FUCKUP ABOUT EVERYTHING.
SO I THOUGHT THAT I COULD HANDLE THINGS BY MYSELF. AND THAT I DIDN'T NEED OTHER PEOPLE TO LOOK AFTER ME BECAUSE I COULD PROVE TO BE NOT USELESS.
AND. SORRY.
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im not sure what to do with that but
thanks for telling me i guess
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EVEN IF IT TURNED OUT TO BE THE WRONG THING TO DO IN THE END?
I'M NOT TRYING TO MAKE UP AN EXCUSE OR ANYTHING.
I JUST WANT TO MAKE SURE YOU JUST UNDERSTAND A LITTLE, I GUESS, EVEN IF IT'S DUMB AS FUCK.
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yeah ok
understanding that doesnt really
help me with my main issue with that
but thanks for the attempt
sorry to have caused that i guess?
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I'M NOT BLAMING YOU OR ANYTHING.
I JUST REALLY FUCKING WANT TO FIX THIS AND WHAT WE'VE BEEN DOING TIL NOW HAS NOT BEEN WORKING.
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none of this is really my business honestly so like
you can go do shit alone if thats what you wanna do man
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WHAT YOU SAID IS IMPLYING THAT I'M PLACING THE BLAME ON YOU GUYS FOR MY RIDICULOUS INSECURITIES WHEN, NO, IT'S ON ME.
AND I DON'T WANT TO GO ALONE!
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cool?
im not really sure why this is the issue youre trying to discuss
i dont really like
its not my business and im fine with it
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it wouldnt be my business if john pulled that shit either
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LIKE IT IS ME, OPENING THE DOOR FOR YOU, ALLOWING YOU INTO MY PLACE OF COMMERCE.
IT WAS SOMETHING I WANTED TO TELL YOU ABOUT BEFORE ANYWAY.
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it isnt my business though
were not dating
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is not my business
and you shouldnt be trying to make it my business
its not
any more than its your business what i do or dont do with my time
yes you can talk about yourself to me but
jesus i dont know what the fuck to do with any of this ok
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