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yeah ok
understanding that doesnt really
help me with my main issue with that
but thanks for the attempt
sorry to have caused that i guess?
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I'M NOT BLAMING YOU OR ANYTHING.
I JUST REALLY FUCKING WANT TO FIX THIS AND WHAT WE'VE BEEN DOING TIL NOW HAS NOT BEEN WORKING.
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none of this is really my business honestly so like
you can go do shit alone if thats what you wanna do man
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WHAT YOU SAID IS IMPLYING THAT I'M PLACING THE BLAME ON YOU GUYS FOR MY RIDICULOUS INSECURITIES WHEN, NO, IT'S ON ME.
AND I DON'T WANT TO GO ALONE!
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cool?
im not really sure why this is the issue youre trying to discuss
i dont really like
its not my business and im fine with it
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it wouldnt be my business if john pulled that shit either
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LIKE IT IS ME, OPENING THE DOOR FOR YOU, ALLOWING YOU INTO MY PLACE OF COMMERCE.
IT WAS SOMETHING I WANTED TO TELL YOU ABOUT BEFORE ANYWAY.
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it isnt my business though
were not dating
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is not my business
and you shouldnt be trying to make it my business
its not
any more than its your business what i do or dont do with my time
yes you can talk about yourself to me but
jesus i dont know what the fuck to do with any of this ok
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I JUST
WANT TO BE ABLE TO SIT IN A ROOM WITH YOU AGAIN AND HAVE YOU NOT WANT TO RUN AWAY FROM ME
AND I DON'T KNOW HOW TO FIX THIS
AND I DON'T THINK YOU WANT TO FIX IT.
YOU SEEM JUST CONTENT WITH THE WHOLE DODGING EACH OTHER THING AND KEEPING EVERYTHING AS SHALLOW AS POSSIBLE.
I HAVE NO WAY OF TELLING IF THAT LAST SENTENCE IS EVEN TRUE OR NOT TOO.
AND IT'S FUCKING UNFAIR OF ME TO JUST ASSUME THAT IT IS WHEN YOU HAVEN'T TOLD ME THAT YOURSELF.
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you keep pushing it and i dont know how ok
i dont have the answer you keep trying to gouge out of me
and holy fucking shit maybe the problem here is we have different ideas
of what the fuck fixing things even means
because apparently the effort ive put forth is negligible just because i dont want to like
jump straight into spilling my soul to the guy who ignored me every other time i tried
just
god it doesnt even matter if i say no
it never has
do whatever you want
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IT DOES MATTER.
AND I'M NOT SAYING IT'S NOT NEGLIGIBLE. JUST THAT I DON'T KNOW WHERE EXACTLY WHERE WE STAND SO I'M NOT SURE HOW TO PROGRESS PAST WHERE WE'RE STUCK AT.
BUT ALSO
HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO KNOW WHAT YOUR IDEAS ARE IF YOU DON'T TELL ME?
AND YOU SAY I IGNORED YOU EVERY TIME BUT EVERY TIME I TRIED TO DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT YOU WOULD JUST
DROP THE SUBJECT AND MOVE ON JUST TO SMOOTH THE ISSUE OVER.
EVEN WHEN I TOLD YOU OVER AND OVER AGAIN THAT WASN'T WHAT I WANTED?
AND THEN I GOT TO A POINT WHERE I COULDN'T EVEN TELL IF WHAT YOU WERE TELLING ME WAS WHAT YOU SINCERELY WANTED OR NOT.
I KNOW THAT I FUCKED UP OVER AND OVER AGAIN. AND THAT THIS IS MY FAULT?
AND EVERYTHING YOU'RE BLAMING ME OF DOING I DID.
ACTUALLY FORGET ALL OF THAT.
I TOLD YOU THAT STORY BECAUSE I WANTED YOU TO KNOW THAT IT WAS A LONG PROCESS FOR ME TO START REACHING OUT TO OTHERS.
AND THAT IT WAS AN EVEN LONGER PROCESS TO BE ABLE TO GET ANY REAL PROGRESS ON MY SLEEP THING.
IT WASN'T SOMETHING THAT WOULD JUST IMMEDIATELY FIX ITSELF?
SO YES. I KEPT MESSING UP AND GOING BACKWARDS WITH IT AND MAKING MISTAKES.
BUT I WAS GODAMN FUCKING TRYING WHEN WE WERE STILL DATING WHETHER YOU NOTICED IT OR NOT.
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because my feelings are that i dont want to have this conversation with you
im not at a point where i can when we cant even fucking have a casual conversation
and you keep forcing me to have it
every time
regardless of what i say
and you never tried to
fuck it
yeah i know
it was my fault
im sorry
great talk
lets keep it going
what else is on your itinerary here
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I LITERALLY ONLY ASKED ABOUT THE TIME THING BECAUSE YOU BROUGHT UP THE SIX MONTH THING. WHICH WAS DUE TIME SHENANIGANS.
AND I ONLY ASKED YOU NOT TO DO IT FOR THE PRECURSOR STUFF BECAUSE I DIDN'T JUST... SEE THE POINT OF DOING THAT WHEN WE WERE DOING THIS AT THE SAME TIME.
BUT I CROSSED A LINE THAT I DIDN'T EVEN KNOW WAS A LINE AND YOU ENDED THE CONVERSATION.
AND THAT'S WHY I MESSAGED YOU TODAY. BECAUSE IT DIDN'T SIT RIGHT WITH ME HOW THAT WENT.
IT. WASN'T. YOUR. FAULT.
JEGUS.
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can you go talk to dirk or someone else
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I WAS NOT UPSET UNTIL YOU MADE IT CLEAR THAT YOU WERE UPSET AND DECIDED TO DROP THE CONVERSATION?
UNLESS YOU COUNT ME LISTENING TO YOUR OPINIONS ON MOULIN ROUGE ME BEING UPSET.
BUT FINE. OK.
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clearly calm content measured words
yeah bye