DAVE?? IT DOES MATTER. AND I'M NOT SAYING IT'S NOT NEGLIGIBLE. JUST THAT I DON'T KNOW WHERE EXACTLY WHERE WE STAND SO I'M NOT SURE HOW TO PROGRESS PAST WHERE WE'RE STUCK AT. BUT ALSO HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO KNOW WHAT YOUR IDEAS ARE IF YOU DON'T TELL ME? AND YOU SAY I IGNORED YOU EVERY TIME BUT EVERY TIME I TRIED TO DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT YOU WOULD JUST DROP THE SUBJECT AND MOVE ON JUST TO SMOOTH THE ISSUE OVER. EVEN WHEN I TOLD YOU OVER AND OVER AGAIN THAT WASN'T WHAT I WANTED? AND THEN I GOT TO A POINT WHERE I COULDN'T EVEN TELL IF WHAT YOU WERE TELLING ME WAS WHAT YOU SINCERELY WANTED OR NOT. I KNOW THAT I FUCKED UP OVER AND OVER AGAIN. AND THAT THIS IS MY FAULT? AND EVERYTHING YOU'RE BLAMING ME OF DOING I DID.
ACTUALLY FORGET ALL OF THAT. I TOLD YOU THAT STORY BECAUSE I WANTED YOU TO KNOW THAT IT WAS A LONG PROCESS FOR ME TO START REACHING OUT TO OTHERS. AND THAT IT WAS AN EVEN LONGER PROCESS TO BE ABLE TO GET ANY REAL PROGRESS ON MY SLEEP THING. IT WASN'T SOMETHING THAT WOULD JUST IMMEDIATELY FIX ITSELF? SO YES. I KEPT MESSING UP AND GOING BACKWARDS WITH IT AND MAKING MISTAKES. BUT I WAS GODAMN FUCKING TRYING WHEN WE WERE STILL DATING WHETHER YOU NOTICED IT OR NOT.
does it because my feelings are that i dont want to have this conversation with you im not at a point where i can when we cant even fucking have a casual conversation and you keep forcing me to have it every time regardless of what i say and you never tried to fuck it
yeah i know it was my fault im sorry great talk lets keep it going what else is on your itinerary here
I WAS HAVING A CASUAL CONVERSATION WITH YOU YESTERDAY? I LITERALLY ONLY ASKED ABOUT THE TIME THING BECAUSE YOU BROUGHT UP THE SIX MONTH THING. WHICH WAS DUE TIME SHENANIGANS. AND I ONLY ASKED YOU NOT TO DO IT FOR THE PRECURSOR STUFF BECAUSE I DIDN'T JUST... SEE THE POINT OF DOING THAT WHEN WE WERE DOING THIS AT THE SAME TIME. BUT I CROSSED A LINE THAT I DIDN'T EVEN KNOW WAS A LINE AND YOU ENDED THE CONVERSATION. AND THAT'S WHY I MESSAGED YOU TODAY. BECAUSE IT DIDN'T SIT RIGHT WITH ME HOW THAT WENT.
I WASN'T UPSET. I WAS NOT UPSET UNTIL YOU MADE IT CLEAR THAT YOU WERE UPSET AND DECIDED TO DROP THE CONVERSATION? UNLESS YOU COUNT ME LISTENING TO YOUR OPINIONS ON MOULIN ROUGE ME BEING UPSET. BUT FINE. OK.
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IT DOES MATTER.
AND I'M NOT SAYING IT'S NOT NEGLIGIBLE. JUST THAT I DON'T KNOW WHERE EXACTLY WHERE WE STAND SO I'M NOT SURE HOW TO PROGRESS PAST WHERE WE'RE STUCK AT.
BUT ALSO
HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO KNOW WHAT YOUR IDEAS ARE IF YOU DON'T TELL ME?
AND YOU SAY I IGNORED YOU EVERY TIME BUT EVERY TIME I TRIED TO DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT YOU WOULD JUST
DROP THE SUBJECT AND MOVE ON JUST TO SMOOTH THE ISSUE OVER.
EVEN WHEN I TOLD YOU OVER AND OVER AGAIN THAT WASN'T WHAT I WANTED?
AND THEN I GOT TO A POINT WHERE I COULDN'T EVEN TELL IF WHAT YOU WERE TELLING ME WAS WHAT YOU SINCERELY WANTED OR NOT.
I KNOW THAT I FUCKED UP OVER AND OVER AGAIN. AND THAT THIS IS MY FAULT?
AND EVERYTHING YOU'RE BLAMING ME OF DOING I DID.
ACTUALLY FORGET ALL OF THAT.
I TOLD YOU THAT STORY BECAUSE I WANTED YOU TO KNOW THAT IT WAS A LONG PROCESS FOR ME TO START REACHING OUT TO OTHERS.
AND THAT IT WAS AN EVEN LONGER PROCESS TO BE ABLE TO GET ANY REAL PROGRESS ON MY SLEEP THING.
IT WASN'T SOMETHING THAT WOULD JUST IMMEDIATELY FIX ITSELF?
SO YES. I KEPT MESSING UP AND GOING BACKWARDS WITH IT AND MAKING MISTAKES.
BUT I WAS GODAMN FUCKING TRYING WHEN WE WERE STILL DATING WHETHER YOU NOTICED IT OR NOT.
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because my feelings are that i dont want to have this conversation with you
im not at a point where i can when we cant even fucking have a casual conversation
and you keep forcing me to have it
every time
regardless of what i say
and you never tried to
fuck it
yeah i know
it was my fault
im sorry
great talk
lets keep it going
what else is on your itinerary here
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I LITERALLY ONLY ASKED ABOUT THE TIME THING BECAUSE YOU BROUGHT UP THE SIX MONTH THING. WHICH WAS DUE TIME SHENANIGANS.
AND I ONLY ASKED YOU NOT TO DO IT FOR THE PRECURSOR STUFF BECAUSE I DIDN'T JUST... SEE THE POINT OF DOING THAT WHEN WE WERE DOING THIS AT THE SAME TIME.
BUT I CROSSED A LINE THAT I DIDN'T EVEN KNOW WAS A LINE AND YOU ENDED THE CONVERSATION.
AND THAT'S WHY I MESSAGED YOU TODAY. BECAUSE IT DIDN'T SIT RIGHT WITH ME HOW THAT WENT.
IT. WASN'T. YOUR. FAULT.
JEGUS.
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can you go talk to dirk or someone else
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I WAS NOT UPSET UNTIL YOU MADE IT CLEAR THAT YOU WERE UPSET AND DECIDED TO DROP THE CONVERSATION?
UNLESS YOU COUNT ME LISTENING TO YOUR OPINIONS ON MOULIN ROUGE ME BEING UPSET.
BUT FINE. OK.
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clearly calm content measured words
yeah bye