[ godspeed, dirk. dave's officially too fast to catch?
he gets a doodle of the weird...green...person puppet from the blender, a badly done saw puppet on a bike after which dave just photoshops in a picture of the actual puppet from saw, and a dave-level drawing of a smuppet surrounded by annoyed and unsure emojis. he apparently has something against whatever the fuck that is? ]
no im racking up lots of puppet memories here like up to my goddamn neck in fucking puppet dong my memories are starting to get uncomfortably full of the damn things im like the epicenter of a cyclone of my own personal hell full of long coarse kermit cock and like straight up wriggling goddamned puppet pelvises in addition to the creepy watchdog puppets that apparently have cameras and like the puppets that exist to die on said cameras films but just just everything buried in felt this is my life now i think to myself as it just keeps happening
its actually starting to make me really uncomfortable to tell the truth
I can see why. By the way. I just saw the dong and ass puppets. In a pile with hats and some robot parts. None of the other ones but I remembered those specific puppets. It could be the same location. Did you see any robot things?
thats a hard no just a puppet trap like haha actually both of these memories are so fucking creepy out of context im not sure any context would make them less so? like did i extrapolate on the puppet snuff details i dont remember but the latest one there was like a puzzle piece in either blood or drippy red marker drawn on a trap door with hello dave written inside so i pulled the like string thing to tug the door down and then i was just buried in puppets i did not see any robot things tho there was a lot going on around there but like i dont think any of it was robotic
i mean i get it? considering every other hallucinomemory ive had the puppet shit is pretty lowkey any reaction of "wow life sure does happen" where those like acid rainbow trips can occur and also crocodiles and soup i get it im pretty sure i must have been done with the world
letting shit happen? kinda does that count as being suicidal do you think i dont think that was exactly it but i gotta say it wasnt hm actually probably the healthiest mindset i remember feeling was like when we were drugged out on sugar honestly
Say Yes to Drugs. I don't know if it counts as suicidal in an active way, despite the actual death involved. But it isn't exactly not suicidal. The sugar thing did have the advantage of being Rose's wedding to a weird grey person. It is probably the best I remember feeling too.
it felt it feels really easy to understand that mindset or feel it creep in a little bit when i think of that shit im thinking that maybe thats a bad thing
well thats why im telling you now in case i dont want to later because i think while its true i didnt tell rose and jade about the whole death memory dealio because they might have remembered something its also true i dont think that was the entire reason but im not sure and it worries me
i mean for the record im fine its just a thing that is steadily becoming mildly concerning as it continues to be a thing in every hallucinomemory but one
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The snuff puppets?
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he gets a doodle of the weird...green...person puppet from the blender, a badly done saw puppet on a bike after which dave just photoshops in a picture of the actual puppet from saw, and a dave-level drawing of a smuppet surrounded by annoyed and unsure emojis. he apparently has something against whatever the fuck that is? ]
no im racking up lots of puppet memories here
like
up to my goddamn neck in fucking puppet dong
my memories are starting to get uncomfortably full of the damn things
im like the epicenter of a cyclone of my own personal hell full of long coarse kermit cock and like
straight up wriggling goddamned puppet pelvises
in addition to the creepy watchdog puppets that apparently have cameras
and like
the puppets that exist to die on said cameras films
but just
just
everything buried in felt
this is my life now i think to myself as it just keeps happening
its actually starting to make me really uncomfortable to tell the truth
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By the way.
I just saw the dong and ass puppets. In a pile with hats and some robot parts.
None of the other ones but I remembered those specific puppets.
It could be the same location. Did you see any robot things?
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just a puppet trap
like
haha actually both of these memories are so fucking creepy out of context
im not sure any context would make them less so?
like did i extrapolate on the puppet snuff details i dont remember but
the latest one there was like a puzzle piece in either blood or drippy red marker drawn on a trap door
with hello dave written inside
so i pulled the like string thing to tug the door down
and then i was just buried in puppets
i did not see any robot things tho
there was a lot going on around there but like i dont think any of it was robotic
can we enact a puppet ban in our lives
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Also that seems like whoever set that up was behind the Billy puppet.
Dude had to be way too into Saw.
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similarly going out on a limb and saying im not interested in meeting whoever set that up
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Jigsaw would be a pretty bad dude to hang with.
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which begs the question of
why was i hanging out with whoever it was
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like
i imagine i would have felt different emotionally had i been kidnapped
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[ he sends that alone to let dirk know he's thinking about it and hasn't passed out on him or anything.
how to describe it? ]
unsurprised
weirded out but unsurprised
kind of tired
resigned?
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Not to overstate the obvious.
But that's kinda fucked up.
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considering every other hallucinomemory ive had
the puppet shit is pretty lowkey
any reaction of "wow life sure does happen"
where those like
acid rainbow trips can occur
and also crocodiles and soup
i get it
im pretty sure i must have been done with the world
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"Life sure does happen," and the resignation. Not so much the rest of it.
Second one not as much.
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see
i actually had that resigned feeling when i remembered dying
only on maybe
a grander scale?
i knew it was going to happen
and i let it
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kinda
does that count as being suicidal do you think
i dont think that was exactly it
but i gotta say it wasnt
hm
actually probably the healthiest mindset i remember feeling
was like
when we were drugged out on sugar
honestly
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I don't know if it counts as suicidal in an active way, despite the actual death involved. But it isn't exactly not suicidal.
The sugar thing did have the advantage of being Rose's wedding to a weird grey person.
It is probably the best I remember feeling too.
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Not that I can't take a guess about all the worrying elements involved here.
But hit me with the specifics, baby bro.
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it feels
really easy
to understand that mindset
or feel it creep in a little bit
when i think of that shit
im thinking that maybe thats a bad thing
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Is really fucking worrying.
In a really big way.
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thats why im telling you now
in case i dont want to later
because i think
while its true i didnt tell rose and jade about the whole
death memory dealio
because they might have remembered something
its also true i dont think that was the entire reason
but im not sure
and it worries me
i mean for the record im fine
its just a thing that is steadily becoming mildly concerning
as it continues to be a thing in every hallucinomemory but one
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Not sure how to put this.
Was one that didn't want to tell people things?
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