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YOU'RE DOING WHAT NOW?
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there are textbooks
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2. WHERE DID YOU GET TEXTBOOKS
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2. dirk got them i didnt ask where he got them from
i assume ursula
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2. URSULA MAKES SENSE. STUPID QUESTION, NOW THAT I THINK ABOUT IT.
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or any other level of math
and you have to like learn them
its an amazing concept i know
come on dude i know you guys had school feeds or whatever its not that far out of left field is it
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UNLESS IT WAS SOMETHING YOU WERE INTO?
SINCE EVERYTHING WE "LEARNED" WAS MOSTLY SHIT THAT WOULD EVENTUALLY PREPARE US FOR THE WHOLE UNIVERSE CONQUEST THING.
EVEN IF WE WEREN'T ENTIRELY AWARE OF IT AT THE TIME, I GUESS.
ANYWAY THAT'S NOT ACTUALLY IMPORTANT.
YOU DECIDED YOU WANTED TO LEARN MATH WHICH... IS NOT THAT SURPRISING ACTUALLY.
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i know a lot of math
but shockingly none of us were educated formally past the age of 13
except the dancestors who got to 16 before dday i guess
if we were even formally educated to that point
and like everyone else can do whatever about that factoid
but yeah i want to learn more math and science and shit
im already stuck at pop culture relevancy in april 2009
i dont have to be stuck where i am educationally forever
and were literally never gonna be in a place where schools are a thing unless we make them
so
i took initiative i guess
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WHENEVER WE LEAVE HERE.
THE POSSIBILITIES ARE INFINITE UNLESS WE GET STUCK ON SOME OTHER BULLSHIT PLANET MADE OUT OF... FUCK, MAYBE GODDAMN SAND OR SOMETHING.
HAVE FUN WITH THAT THOUGH?
NOT SURPRISED THAT DIRK AGREED TO IT SINCE IT SOUNDS LIKE SOMETHING HE'D BE INTO.
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but it is a thing he is into insofar as
hell usually help me whenever i ask for it
if i do
which i did
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VERSUS DOING IT BECAUSE HE'S FORCED TO RIDE AN UGLY YELLOW VEHICLE TO AND FROM AN EDUCATIONAL INSTITUTE EVERY DAY.
AND ALSO BECAUSE YOU ASKED, YEAH. THAT TOO.
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neither of us ever did that or ever will really so its a moot point
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BUT YOU KNOW HIM BETTER THAN I DO SO I'LL JUST STOP ASSUMING SHIT ABOUT HIM.
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thanks?
so why were you asking if i was busy
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I KNOW YOU SAID YOU CAN MULTITASK BUT I WOULDN'T WANT TO INTERRUPT YOUR CALCULUS.
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and im not going to be able to multitask for a good portion of tomorrow
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FINE, SO. I AM GOING TO TYPE SOME WORDS AT YOU.
AND YOU ARE FREE TO JUST IGNORE THEM UNTIL LATER WHEN YOU ARE NO LONGER PREOCCUPIED.
OR WHATEVER YOU WANT, I'M NOT THE BOSS OF YOU.
THE LAST TIME I TALKED TO YOU I MENTIONED MAKING A LIST?
AND I THOUGHT ABOUT IT AND THEN REALIZED I AM FUCKING AWFUL AT DOING LISTS.
I HAVE NO CLUE WHY I THOUGHT I COULD DO THIS.
I ATTEMPTED TO WRITE SOMETHING OUT AND IT WAS JUST THIS CONVOLUTED MESS THAT HAD LIKE SEVERAL POINTS THAT WERE JUST AIMED ALL OVER THE PLACE AND JUST
JEGUS. ALL I COULD THINK OF WAS, "THIS IS LIKE MY MEMOS ALL OVER AGAIN."
ALTHOUGH THIS TIME I WAS THE ONLY ONE SUBJECTED TO MY ABSURDITY SO I CAN TAKE SOLACE IN THAT.
I HOPE YOU SKIPPED OVER THIS TANGENT HOLY FUCK WHAT AM I TALKING ABOUT. MOVING THE FUCK ON.
LIKE I SAID YOU DO NOT NEED TO READY THIS RIGHT AWAY. TAKE YOUR TIME.
DO SOME EQUATIONS.
WHAT IS TEN TIMES THREE?
OPEN THAT TEXTBOOK AND FIND OUT, DAVE.
THIS IS AN APOLOGY.
FOR NOT BEING A VERY GOOD FRIEND TO YOU.
I KNOW THAT YOU SAID YOU WEREN'T REALLY BEING A GOOD ONE TO ME, BUT IT WENT BOTH WAYS?
I DID A BAD JOB OF NOT JUST LISTENING TO YOU.
LIKE OVER AND OVER AND OVER AGAIN.
I KEPT ASSUMING I KNEW WHAT WAS BEST? LIKE I KNEW HOW TO MAKE EVERYONE HAPPY.
BUT I DIDN'T.
AND I WAS TOO ASHAMED TO ADMIT THAT I HAD NO IDEA WHAT I WAS EVEN DOING SO I JUST KEPT PRESSING ON.
TRYING TO FIX PROBLEMS THAT I EITHER COULDN'T ACTUALLY FIX ON MY OWN OR AT ALL.
AND THEN WHENEVER THINGS STARTED TO DIFFER FROM THE PLAN I CREATED IN MY HEAD, I'D FREAK OUT.
BECAUSE HOW DARE THINGS DEVIATE FROM MY AWFUL ITINERARY THAT WOULD HELP ABSOLUTELY NO ONE??
SO. YEAH.
SORRY FOR NOT BEING MORE CONSIDERATE ABOUT YOUR FEELINGS.
EVEN WHEN YOU DIDN'T TELL ME THEM, I STILL SHOULD HAVE BEEN MORE AWARE OF WHAT WAS GOING ON INSTEAD OF BLINDLY BELIEVING I KNEW WHAT THE DEAL WAS.
YOU'RE NOT THE ONLY ONE WHO NEEDS TO FIGURE OUT HOW TO DEAL WITH PEOPLE, I GUESS.
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its only recently ive been expecting people to pay attention to my feelings
or trying to share them
so it was kind of stupid to expect you to take them into account
when it wasnt how things worked specifically prior to that
im sorry i havent been able to support you the way i should have
when you were freaking out
or when you had problems
and said you didnt want to work on them
ive never known how to help people really so
ive never really been the greatest friend but i took a particular shitty bent recently
and regardless of the reasons behind it that did suck of me so
sorry
im still not sure im in a place where i can do that even though its stupid
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I DO LEGITIMATELY WANT YOU TO FOCUS ON YOUR OWN SHIT?
AND TO WORK TO BE IN A BETTER PLACE FOR YOURSELF.
AND I'M GLAD YOU HAVE PEOPLE AROUND YOU THAT CAN HELP YOU GO IN THAT DIRECTION.
I'VE BEEN WORKING ON THE WHOLE FUCKED UP SLEEP THING THOUGH.
I MEAN, I HAVE BEEN WORKING ON IT SINCE NOVEMBER ACTUALLY.
ALTHOUGH IT GOT PUT ON HOLD IN DECEMBER BUT I'M BACK AT IT.
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what inspired it
you always said you didnt really want to work on that
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I THINK I WAS MORE SCARED TO DO IT THAN ANYTHING.
SINCE IT WAS A FUCKED UP HABIT BUT IT WAS ALSO SOMETHING THAT WAS FAMILIAR.
AND IT WAS HOMURA, ACTUALLY.
AFTER HAVING A SMALL, EMO CHILD CONTINUOUSLY DO THINGS LIKE POUR PITCHERS OF WATER ON ME I JUST GOT KIND OF TIRED OF THE PROBLEM.
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she never slept either
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I'M NOT. THAT SEEMS PRETTY FITTING.
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WHAT THE FUCK.
ARE YOU EATING?
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