No. I was scared and I wanted to know you were okay. [It's one of the reasons he has always been so clingy. After a pause,] Before it was okay to hug you again, you offered one to me because you knew it made me feel better. That's what it is... basically all the time.

[He needs that reassurance. He needs to feel that Dave is okay and safe and there.]

It feels impossible to really account for the way I've come to rely on you to feel good and safe. It's part of my daily routine, though, from eating during the day to actually managing sleep of some kind.