Knowing what you were thinking helps. I want to get into the practical question, but if we're exhausting ourselves on feelings, I might as well talk about the trust thing.
[Dave says he doesn't trust him and the reverse is true, and it's awful, but it's a funny thing because he says it, so tiring and so stupid.]
It might be we trust each other something like oppositeways. I trust you with everything about me, Dave. I get scared sometimes, but I guess we're pinning my abandonment fear on childhood developmental problems now. I pretty much trust you with all of me, and I know you'd never do anything to hurt me in any way, if you had the information you needed and could help it. I took your hand when we met the Kharaa. [Do you trust me? No hesitation, he'd totally fallen for it, even knowing what he was doing. He doesn't think he's capable of doing otherwise with how hard he trusts Dave.] If there's anything I don't tell you, it's from an assumption you don't want me to.
For the reverse, I know you don't tell me everything or even tell me that you're holding something back. I know that if I kept a count on how many times you lied by word or commission in this conversation, I'd be under the real number. I also know that you don't particularly care for your own well-being. If being aware of those things, and trying to respond to them, is not trusting you, then yes, although that isn't how I think about it.
For the rest, though, my trust is more or less absolute. The times when I hesitate or mess up aren't so much because I distrust you, as they are that I don't trust I deserve you.
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[Dave says he doesn't trust him and the reverse is true, and it's awful, but it's a funny thing because he says it, so tiring and so stupid.]
It might be we trust each other something like oppositeways. I trust you with everything about me, Dave. I get scared sometimes, but I guess we're pinning my abandonment fear on childhood developmental problems now. I pretty much trust you with all of me, and I know you'd never do anything to hurt me in any way, if you had the information you needed and could help it. I took your hand when we met the Kharaa. [Do you trust me? No hesitation, he'd totally fallen for it, even knowing what he was doing. He doesn't think he's capable of doing otherwise with how hard he trusts Dave.] If there's anything I don't tell you, it's from an assumption you don't want me to.
For the reverse, I know you don't tell me everything or even tell me that you're holding something back. I know that if I kept a count on how many times you lied by word or commission in this conversation, I'd be under the real number. I also know that you don't particularly care for your own well-being. If being aware of those things, and trying to respond to them, is not trusting you, then yes, although that isn't how I think about it.
For the rest, though, my trust is more or less absolute. The times when I hesitate or mess up aren't so much because I distrust you, as they are that I don't trust I deserve you.