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[parodeity]

DAVE STRIDER

consider this your warning about stairs. itll just keep happening bro. im telling you man

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I don't know anymore if it ain't my thing. [ faster is fine. dave matches pace as easily as breathing. ]

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[There's a short sort of sound and he pauses, changing the song a little.]

...wait what do you mean?

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Things you like. They're not really me sometimes but you likin' 'em trumps that. [ he adds his right hand. ]

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[He's silent for a second as he listens and threads notes together.]

You know I don't want you to do things just because I like them. I get that me liking them probably trumps that but you know sometimes I worry about it.

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You bein' happy means so much more than the rest. [ it's a sentiment he can't help. ] Maybe it scared me a little because I liked it too. I don't know.

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...what scares you now? Like overall, I mean.

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You leaving me. [ wryly. ] ...actually enjoying being in control sometimes.

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Okay so the first one is not going to happen, but...the second? Really? [A few notes are played.] Why so?

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[ ... ] I don't like having anything in common with him.

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[Ah.]

...babe. There is a really big difference between you and Bro and how you guys handle control. Do you understand that?

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Sometimes I wonder. [ but he's not sure that ever stops. ] He used to have cameras set up all around the apartment, you know? Kinda fucked up.

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That is pretty fucked up. You don't have cameras set up everywhere. And the thing is, your kind of control is control I ask for instead of control you're exerting just because.

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Sometimes it just bothers me that I...get off on shit like that. [ an annoyed noise. ] I still want to do this, this was a dumb thing to bring up.

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It's not dumb to bring it up if it's something that actually bothers you. [He tilts his head again.] I obviously still want to do this, too, but I also want to make sure you're comfortable.

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Not all one way. [ ... ] Neither of us holds all the power. Right?

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Right. Obviously. That is why we talk about these things and work through them together! [Oh, wait.] ..you're worried?

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I just...wanted to make sure. [ a pause. ] I'm nervous, I guess.

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[He stops playing the piano then, turning to face him before reaching forward and brushing fingers through Dave's hair.]

Rightfully so given what it is we want to do. [Thanks John.] ...we're equally giving and taking in this. I promise. Have I ever kept quiet about stuff I don't want to be doing?

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[ dave leans into john's touch, at least. ] Nah. That's more my thing?

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Which you're working on. [That's sort of promising at least.] So...I think we can figure this out together. Don't you?

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[ ... ] I love you. [ so yes, or maybe more maybe. ] Are you nervous?

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[In a way, sometimes, John wonders if there's ever going to be a day love isn't enough. He's kind of hoping it doesn't come to that though and for now he rewards Dave with a soft smile.]

Love you, too. It's why I'm nervous. I thought we went over that.

[You know, a few weeks ago when he made an ass of himself.]

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So maybe it's my turn. [ to be nervous, he means. dave looks back at the piano, gaze abstract and quiet as he considers...whatever. he still wants to do this, but it means different things to both of them.

but he's already in too deep, anyway. if john leaves after this someday, will it really hurt any more or less for having gone further still? ] ...we should ignore it.

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[Well. Dave's not going to tell him and so John's in the dark on that for a while. Oh well. Maybe someday.]

...ignore what, exactly? The nerves?

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No...well, yes, but also no. [ he pulls a face. ] I don't know why it gets scary sometimes, you know? You already have the power to completely wreck me. And I think having no nerves might be bad?