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[parodeity]

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[robitussin]

yeah like

if i had to explain to someone every time i was just being a sarcastic asshole i don't know how i would function in that relationship

[parodeity]

dating someone who doesnt understand how you function is like
i think we all do it at some point
but its one of those dumb things you do that you go
now what the fuck was i thinking here

[robitussin]

i am hopefully too smart to do that

did i ever tell you about the girl from my old school

[parodeity]

i dont think so
what about her

[robitussin]

so like

i moved here when i was fifteen, so back when i was in another city and really stupid there was this girl i was friends with. so we met when i was like ten or something idk, but her parents were super strict and she hated it so she acted out a lot and i was always like freaking out because she tried to drag me into her shenanigans all the time

does this make sense so far

[parodeity]

yeah im following so far

[robitussin]

so like the culmination of this was one day when we were fifteen we had a huge argument and she was all "you need to let loose!" and i was like "you need to take your future more seriously!" and the end result of this is that we started kissing during this super heated exchange because we were stupid teenagers (TM) and then we didn't know how to talk about it so things got weird

then my dad was all "surprise i've got a work opportunity we're moving across the country" so i was like. what's even the point. so i didn't bring it up and then we just left and now i'm here

so basically that's the ultimate "what the fuck was i even thinking here" and i'm never doing that again

[parodeity]

im not even sure i can judge since ive done the argue and then make out thing multiple times
and then not talking about it for ages
its like
not thrilling???
maybe should stop making that a thing

did you like her though

[robitussin]

that should absolutely stop being a thing it got really awkward

i guess. i don't know, it was stupid and i was being stupid about it so i try not to think about it any more? anyways she gave me her number but i'm an asshole and i never called her so she probably hates me by now because it's been two years so it's whatever

[parodeity]

emotions are hard and weird
and sometimes youre just not ready to handle them
even when you do really like people it can just not work out
either because you timed it wrong or like
the two of you just arent ready for whatever it is you know?
ive had some kind of shitty relationships
or things that could have been relationships
along the way to this point in my life

[robitussin]

yeah

also we were both literally fifteen so i super doubt it would have worked out anyways but it just sucks. she wasn't like my best friend but she was cool and i miss her

so anyways when i moved here i joined a bunch of clubs because i wanted to make friends but i was really confused and didn't know how to deal with other people. i only really started making friends when i got the app. idk if that's weird

[parodeity]

i dont think its weird
in the other life i didnt have any friends until i met john and jade and rose online

[robitussin]

thanks

i know we're both like bad at sincerity but that was cool of you to say. also it's not like surprising because it's you but thank you for not making it a Thing that i made out with a girl because my parents would definitely make it a Thing even if they're p much great

okay awkward sincerity over

[parodeity]

i dont know what awkward sincerity youre talking about

but in all seriousness youre a pretty cool person
im glad we started talking

[robitussin]

awkward sincerity is a myth

but yeah same

[parodeity]

people like egbert like to believe otherwise

[robitussin]

hopefully i won't ever have a thing for someone like him

i'm glad you do though

[parodeity]

kinda feeling like youre our number one shipper here nat

[robitussin]

am i not allowed to be happy for you

(for real though if it's getting weird i can stop)

[parodeity]

nah its fine
i think
you helped it along a lot so

[robitussin]

wait really

i basically just told him to stop being ridiculous

[parodeity]

i mean
he cped something about feelings and my best guess was that you were on the other side of that conversation
when he asked me out i mean
so its more a hunch

[robitussin]

oh right

the really long and sappy monologue thing about you?

[parodeity]

if it started out with "like a best friend" then yes
so like
thanks for that
because im pretty fucking crap at navigating romance on my own

[robitussin]

it seems like you've managed it ok so far