im not even sure i can judge since ive done the argue and then make out thing multiple times and then not talking about it for ages its like not thrilling??? maybe should stop making that a thing
that should absolutely stop being a thing it got really awkward
i guess. i don't know, it was stupid and i was being stupid about it so i try not to think about it any more? anyways she gave me her number but i'm an asshole and i never called her so she probably hates me by now because it's been two years so it's whatever
emotions are hard and weird and sometimes youre just not ready to handle them even when you do really like people it can just not work out either because you timed it wrong or like the two of you just arent ready for whatever it is you know? ive had some kind of shitty relationships or things that could have been relationships along the way to this point in my life
also we were both literally fifteen so i super doubt it would have worked out anyways but it just sucks. she wasn't like my best friend but she was cool and i miss her
so anyways when i moved here i joined a bunch of clubs because i wanted to make friends but i was really confused and didn't know how to deal with other people. i only really started making friends when i got the app. idk if that's weird
i know we're both like bad at sincerity but that was cool of you to say. also it's not like surprising because it's you but thank you for not making it a Thing that i made out with a girl because my parents would definitely make it a Thing even if they're p much great
i mean he cped something about feelings and my best guess was that you were on the other side of that conversation when he asked me out i mean so its more a hunch
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and then not talking about it for ages
its like
not thrilling???
maybe should stop making that a thing
did you like her though
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i guess. i don't know, it was stupid and i was being stupid about it so i try not to think about it any more? anyways she gave me her number but i'm an asshole and i never called her so she probably hates me by now because it's been two years so it's whatever
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and sometimes youre just not ready to handle them
even when you do really like people it can just not work out
either because you timed it wrong or like
the two of you just arent ready for whatever it is you know?
ive had some kind of shitty relationships
or things that could have been relationships
along the way to this point in my life
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also we were both literally fifteen so i super doubt it would have worked out anyways but it just sucks. she wasn't like my best friend but she was cool and i miss her
so anyways when i moved here i joined a bunch of clubs because i wanted to make friends but i was really confused and didn't know how to deal with other people. i only really started making friends when i got the app. idk if that's weird
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in the other life i didnt have any friends until i met john and jade and rose online
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i know we're both like bad at sincerity but that was cool of you to say. also it's not like surprising because it's you but thank you for not making it a Thing that i made out with a girl because my parents would definitely make it a Thing even if they're p much great
okay awkward sincerity over
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but in all seriousness youre a pretty cool person
im glad we started talking
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but yeah same
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i'm glad you do though
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(for real though if it's getting weird i can stop)
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i think
you helped it along a lot so
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i basically just told him to stop being ridiculous
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he cped something about feelings and my best guess was that you were on the other side of that conversation
when he asked me out i mean
so its more a hunch
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the really long and sappy monologue thing about you?
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so like
thanks for that
because im pretty fucking crap at navigating romance on my own
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speaking of
john just showed up w our coffee finally so ill ttyl