why are the baked goods options in there what am i a cat
see thats a hard question because like i dont know what i would do if i could cut out the emotional part i want to say yeah i would but theres something so compelling about it and thats not even the right word because its like a trainwreck i cant look away from and that isnt compelling thats a disaster and youre just frozen there looking at it in slowly dawning horror but i dont know if i would or wouldnt paradoxically i want to know as much as i dont want to know and i am him as much as im not
yknow thats a really good and terrifying way to put it some people talk about what they remember like its somebody else entirely but i dont know youve had more than a few you know what im talking about when you start being able to put an actual person together i dont know his name but i know he had a crappy childhood and he lived in space (?) and was rich and powerful and fought the bad guys i think the stuff ive been getting was his
you kinda wanna know but you also kinda dont wanna know what happens if we just keep remembering and remembering wheres the point where we end up being more like these people than well us?
a lot of people only have a few memories i have a few more than that so my way of putting it may be terrifying due to that but yeah i think the shit they send us or that we find is all from the memories ive figured that for a while since i remember all the shit i have
it gets kind of existence crisisy doesnt it am i really me or was i always him and people always say that of course im me and i get to decide but like talk to me in twenty memories or so and tell me if you say the same thing i guess is mostly what i feel at those times
yeah my friends just have one or two so i must look totally batshit in comparison one day im like " ponies made out of diamonds exist " and the next its " i threw a gigantic party and spent the night spraying titties with champagne " and theyre like " well i remember a statue "
kinda explains the name retrospec tho or why they talk about remembering so much they WANT us to remember but fuck if i know why
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see thats a hard question because like
i dont know what i would do if i could cut out the emotional part
i want to say yeah i would but
theres something so compelling about it
and thats not even the right word because its like a trainwreck i cant look away from
and that isnt compelling thats a disaster and youre just frozen there looking at it in slowly dawning horror
but i dont know if i would or wouldnt
paradoxically i want to know as much as i dont want to know
and i am him as much as im not
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some people talk about what they remember like its somebody else entirely but
i dont know
youve had more than a few you know what im talking about when you start being able to put an actual person together
i dont know his name but i know he had a crappy childhood and he lived in space (?) and was rich and powerful and fought the bad guys
i think the stuff ive been getting was his
you kinda wanna know but you also kinda dont wanna know
what happens if we just keep remembering and remembering
wheres the point where we end up being more like these people than
well
us?
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i have
a few more than that
so my way of putting it may be terrifying due to that
but yeah i think the shit they send us or that we find
is all from the memories
ive figured that for a while
since i remember all the shit i have
it gets kind of existence crisisy doesnt it
am i really me or was i always him
and people always say that of course im me and i get to decide but like
talk to me in twenty memories or so and tell me if you say the same thing i guess
is mostly what i feel at those times
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one day im like " ponies made out of diamonds exist " and the next its " i threw a gigantic party and spent the night spraying titties with champagne "
and theyre like " well i remember a statue "
kinda explains the name retrospec tho
or why they talk about remembering so much
they WANT us to remember but fuck if i know why
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30+
its a thing
to fuck with us
i mean i know that cant be the actual reason
but it feels like it is on a day to day basis