It changes. [His monotone sounds slightly disgruntled so yeah it's the real answer.] Sometimes it gets stronger and sometimes I can mostly block it out. Its omnipresence at the back of my head is a thing.
It's just hard to picture - not. [ not without the option where he shuts down to avoid doing it. ] After - you get why. You saw my room, I saw yours. But yeah. I think the normal person metric probably wants somethin', like, else.
I'm not up for a Strider-style discourse on what we do or do not feel about things that did or did not happen. But I've been meanin' to ask you for a while - well, I've been considerin' askin' and tryin' to decide if I thought it was too weird and depressin' an activity, but I don't care right now, so. I don't want to marathon songs about that alone because I think that'd probably just get me stuck in my own head but I want to listen to them anyway. We can just do that until one or both of us passes out? Because maybe if I wasn't just doin' it alone that wouldn't happen.
[ "about that" is clear as ever, thanks dave, but at least he clearly stated the activity. ]
[ dave immediately gets jumpy as hell at the prospect of clarifying what the songs are about. why is he the way he is. it wouldn't be immediately obvious to anyone else, as with most of his nervous habits, but the fingers on his crossed arms - now tensely folded rather than relaxed - drum against his elbows. ]
There's this band. [ illuminating. ] I like some of their shit. I only listened to a few songs because I wasn't feelin' particularly up to more after a few songs?
[ well. it stops him from tapping his fingers tunelessly. ]
You can back out if you don't wanna. I mean, if you think it's depressin' and too much or whatever even after one song. Uh, we should clean up and go upstairs then maybe?
[ vague wave at food and medkit and how likely is he to be stopped from getting to his feet because that's about to be a thing he's going to try to do ]
[ but actually he doesn't have the energy to fight up past dirk pushing him down which is Telling since normally he'd be perfectly capable of zipping out of reach if he felt like it.
he like, thinks he could still flashstep away, but also, he is pretty sure dirk would then proceed to murder him, so, ]
[ ok dave will sit here obediently for once although he. usually will comply with this kind of directive even if he bitches about it. at least his hair has dried over the course of this conversation, that's nice. ]
[Congrats on that. For Dirk's part he finishes fast. Then he crouches down in front of Dave.] Okay, we're good to go. [But Dave basically has to take a piggyback ride or Dirk will object.]
[ all right, but has dave refused a piggyback ride from dirk to date? he rolls his eyes for dramatic complaint but complies too immediately to actually mind. ]
Good. We can make more. [By 'we' he means 'I' but hey if Dave wants to join, sure. Dirk just tends to be less likely to have problems with meat-related activities. Anyway Dave gets his piggyback ride upstairs, and he will get dropped off on the lower bunk. Dirk will sit beside him without asking.]
[ dave pushes him off but it's like. ineffectual and mostly chiding. ]
Change first. [ dave's already in pajamas so he won't try to get up again, BUT DIRK IS STILL IN SWIM TRUNKS. apparently dave has objections to dirk not changing into pajamas or actual clothes before going to bed, for some reason. ] I'll do the music while you do that.
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[ the metric rates them both as idiots. dave is not sure why he considered there was another option that was not that. ]
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Frankly, I don't particularly want to chill about you. I know I should, but it's discordant with how I feel.
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I don't think I want to watch a movie after all.
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What do you want to do?
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[ @ dave stop answering questions with questions ]
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[This... probably doesn't mean he wants to leave Dirk? unsure anxious teenager]
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[ "about that" is clear as ever, thanks dave, but at least he clearly stated the activity. ]
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There's this band. [ illuminating. ] I like some of their shit. I only listened to a few songs because I wasn't feelin' particularly up to more after a few songs?
[ dirk already said yes ]
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Sure. You don't have to tell me the band or theme.
[Like. Once he hears it it's going to click, so.]
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You can back out if you don't wanna. I mean, if you think it's depressin' and too much or whatever even after one song. Uh, we should clean up and go upstairs then maybe?
[ vague wave at food and medkit and how likely is he to be stopped from getting to his feet because that's about to be a thing he's going to try to do ]
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[ but actually he doesn't have the energy to fight up past dirk pushing him down which is Telling since normally he'd be perfectly capable of zipping out of reach if he felt like it.
he like, thinks he could still flashstep away, but also, he is pretty sure dirk would then proceed to murder him, so, ]
But yeah ok.
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[And Dirk is still overprotective.]
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[ he is arguing but also, he is still not moving so dirk won ]
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[But first he's going to use flashstepping to put this all away, which is really fast so it's not entirely off of a second.]
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I liked the cold cuts. [ btw. ]
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Change first. [ dave's already in pajamas so he won't try to get up again, BUT DIRK IS STILL IN SWIM TRUNKS. apparently dave has objections to dirk not changing into pajamas or actual clothes before going to bed, for some reason. ] I'll do the music while you do that.
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