Dave, I feel like everything I do is controlling. I'm perpetually terrified of becoming something like, Not him, but, It's a worse version of me. But the way to avoid doing that isn't to run away from everything that might vaguely have some element of control to it. I don't want to throw out the robot with the decontamination tank. Babies? Why would you put a baby in a decontamination tank? Whatever. What I'm saying is that forcing people to do things they don't want to against their will because I think it's best for them is a terrible thing that I don't want to do. But if someone has a hard time with something, and they actually are okay with me being pushy about it, such that me being pushy is good for both of us, Then maybe being pushy like that in that case isn't a bad thing, And maybe I need to learn the difference between being controlling because I think I know best, and helping someone I love do things by being myself. Maybe learning how to be myself in a productive way, operating with respect to people's boundaries, is good, Instead of just trying to crush every trait in me that has the slightest possibility of making me vaguely resemble a worse version of me.
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I'm perpetually terrified of becoming something like,
Not him, but,
It's a worse version of me.
But the way to avoid doing that isn't to run away from everything that might vaguely have some element of control to it.
I don't want to throw out the robot with the decontamination tank.
Babies?
Why would you put a baby in a decontamination tank?
Whatever.
What I'm saying is that forcing people to do things they don't want to against their will because I think it's best for them is a terrible thing that I don't want to do.
But if someone has a hard time with something, and they actually are okay with me being pushy about it, such that me being pushy is good for both of us,
Then maybe being pushy like that in that case isn't a bad thing,
And maybe I need to learn the difference between being controlling because I think I know best, and helping someone I love do things by being myself.
Maybe learning how to be myself in a productive way, operating with respect to people's boundaries, is good,
Instead of just trying to crush every trait in me that has the slightest possibility of making me vaguely resemble a worse version of me.
Not sure how much sense any of that made.