It was really, really stupid.

[ to clarify. ]

And I'm not sayin' any of this well so I mostly deserve any hurt I did acquire throughout this. It ain't like I haven't stabbed you metaphorically an equal or greater number of times in this exact conversation than you have me.

[ but okay. dirk wants to know. ]

I just felt kind of stupid for doing another thing first, again. Orange makes me happy.