[He stops himself, tries to work on it better. Reformulate and re-approach.]
Uh, I don't know if I ever clearly said this. I know I've talked about it in different ways, but I don't think you... realized the conclusion. I've said that I've never been very honest or open with my friends before. I didn't trust them with everything, whether it was my feelings or information about how I wanted things to go. I withheld a lot, partly out of fear.
But when we talked like that, on the roof, when we first met... it was incredible? I really loved that. I felt like... I needed to keep that. Not just the part where we talked about our respective problems, but all of it. I realized then that this was the relationship I needed and wanted. Not a master-apprentice relationship with my cool hero movie star Bro, but... that. Talking about anything, being as honest as we could be and supporting each other, joking and laughing about the dumbest shit. Just... being totally comfortable around you, and open and honest, because of the circle we made that was just us, because you understood me. Even the things you didn't get. I felt uniquely understood and understanding.
Does that make sense? I'm not sure. It's how I feel about it.
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[He stops himself, tries to work on it better. Reformulate and re-approach.]
Uh, I don't know if I ever clearly said this. I know I've talked about it in different ways, but I don't think you... realized the conclusion. I've said that I've never been very honest or open with my friends before. I didn't trust them with everything, whether it was my feelings or information about how I wanted things to go. I withheld a lot, partly out of fear.
But when we talked like that, on the roof, when we first met... it was incredible? I really loved that. I felt like... I needed to keep that. Not just the part where we talked about our respective problems, but all of it. I realized then that this was the relationship I needed and wanted. Not a master-apprentice relationship with my cool hero movie star Bro, but... that. Talking about anything, being as honest as we could be and supporting each other, joking and laughing about the dumbest shit. Just... being totally comfortable around you, and open and honest, because of the circle we made that was just us, because you understood me. Even the things you didn't get. I felt uniquely understood and understanding.
Does that make sense? I'm not sure. It's how I feel about it.