[ like dirk did when dave brought up hal, dave kind of groans but then just. lets the dissertation he asked for happen. it helps, but not because of the information. he's been known to ask rose to ramble at him to distract him, and that was halfway why he asked dirk what it was he wanted to say on the topic.
he won't interrupt. he can actually listen when he tries to. but at the end dave will sit up straight. ish. which means he pulls his head off of dirk's shoulder. he doesn't stop the really quite frankly pathetic barely finger touching thing that is happening or scoot backwards, though? so this situation is just kind of dumb directly in dirk's space but making contact only very strangely. ]
Do you ever listen to yourself speak? You even said it earlier. Is that...is that how you think about it now? That you're not broken or a failure or anything else. You're just a kid adapting to a new not so hot situation after thirteen years of a crap one and three more of a sucky one?
[ does it help to think about it like that? ]
No. It doesn't help, exactly, not...always. I don't like thinkin' about...illnesses or diseases like you said. Rose callin' it what it was at the volcano...helped. Because I didn't want to have to say what it was to her, so I just explained it, and let her name it. Sometimes - sometimes I think calling it by name helps. But mostly - mostly what helps, when I'm not disbelievin' it, is you tellin' me it's okay not to be okay.
[ and out of a sense of fairness: ]
I don't mind the label of bisexual, exactly, but I don't really like the expectation that I have to be one way or the other and that I have to actually say either?
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he won't interrupt. he can actually listen when he tries to. but at the end dave will sit up straight. ish. which means he pulls his head off of dirk's shoulder. he doesn't stop the really quite frankly pathetic barely finger touching thing that is happening or scoot backwards, though? so this situation is just kind of dumb directly in dirk's space but making contact only very strangely. ]
Do you ever listen to yourself speak? You even said it earlier. Is that...is that how you think about it now? That you're not broken or a failure or anything else. You're just a kid adapting to a new not so hot situation after thirteen years of a crap one and three more of a sucky one?
[ does it help to think about it like that? ]
No. It doesn't help, exactly, not...always. I don't like thinkin' about...illnesses or diseases like you said. Rose callin' it what it was at the volcano...helped. Because I didn't want to have to say what it was to her, so I just explained it, and let her name it. Sometimes - sometimes I think calling it by name helps. But mostly - mostly what helps, when I'm not disbelievin' it, is you tellin' me it's okay not to be okay.
[ and out of a sense of fairness: ]
I don't mind the label of bisexual, exactly, but I don't really like the expectation that I have to be one way or the other and that I have to actually say either?