It matters if you want to change the decision. If you don't want to, which it sounds like you don't really, but if you don't want to go on trips any longer, we can drop it and leave it. If you do, I guess we'd...talk about it. But I don't...want to agree to anythin' that forces you not to be honest with other people. And you've so far declined to agree to anythin' that forces me to do shit I straight up don't want to do. I guess -

[ he has to think back. when he'd flipped gears immediately, and pulled rose out as the one to go with him. ]

I should have said I didn't trust you. Is what you wanted. Instead of makin' you guess? I thought maybe if I had time to regroup it'd - fix itself. And I didn't want you to...I didn't want you to persuade me into somethin' I didn't want, because I didn't want to resent you for it. So I didn't tell you. It wasn't fair. I'll...work on it.