[Dirk knew it would be a lot, but Dirk was ready. He closes his eyes and he feels it sink into him, lets all the muggy air fill up his lungs. Just as it was for Dave, some of it is strange and some of it is familiar, and some fits just right, the heart of it, wanting and not deserving, wanting and having no right to want. Their apartments are alternate universe mirrors with their lives, and it isn't so simple as that—they are not just each other reflected back. But while Dirk suffocates on hot air, he understands better the things that he didn't ever live, and those he did.
Like someone else's sweater, yes. Like someone else's furnishings in the apartment you grew up in. Ben Stiller is in the same spot, but the furniture is rearranged and different horrors cover the floors.
He has said so many stupid things lately that he doesn't want to try to say anything. He has pushed Dave so hard lately that he doesn't want to make a move. But he remembers how scared he felt showing Dave all of that. He needs to do something or say something.
He doesn't know what to do or say.]
We need to actually remember to go get lunch after this. And not... not? I'm not at all hungry right now but it's still a thing that we need to eventually make happen. Maybe it should be dinner instead? We could, maybe, do something stupid until we can do that.
[It's a little helpless and it's very very stupid. He just knows that he still wants to be with his brother and spend time with him and help him every single day of forever.]
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Like someone else's sweater, yes. Like someone else's furnishings in the apartment you grew up in. Ben Stiller is in the same spot, but the furniture is rearranged and different horrors cover the floors.
He has said so many stupid things lately that he doesn't want to try to say anything. He has pushed Dave so hard lately that he doesn't want to make a move. But he remembers how scared he felt showing Dave all of that. He needs to do something or say something.
He doesn't know what to do or say.]
We need to actually remember to go get lunch after this. And not... not? I'm not at all hungry right now but it's still a thing that we need to eventually make happen. Maybe it should be dinner instead? We could, maybe, do something stupid until we can do that.
[It's a little helpless and it's very very stupid. He just knows that he still wants to be with his brother and spend time with him and help him every single day of forever.]