[ or at least...more at ease. some of the hard things have been better, but some of them haven't by dave's standards. things he wishes he'd never admitted to: wanting to live with dirk, not trusting dirk, being jealous of rin re: karkat when they weren't anything other than good friends, not wanting people to touch him though at least he thinks he didn't mind telling that to rose and jade, some of the bro shit he'd ended up telling dirk, admitting to ever wanting to go public to karkat, the part where he wasn't sure bro didn't have his reasons for hating dave.
it's the last one that makes his breath catch as he looks over, and after a second he reaches out to drag down the hand nearest to him. it's still awkward when he grips it, but it's easier if he's initiating it. ]
We can work on the food thing. [ should have been anyway, probably, but dave had never given it any thought in general. ] I want to work on the - touch thing again.
[ tangible things he can share, like some sort of peace offering. ]
Those are things I want. [ well kind of he's still "but does this ping control issues for dirk and is it fair at all it's probably not fair shit" re the food issue but. ] And I've said them to you, so - see?
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[ or at least...more at ease. some of the hard things have been better, but some of them haven't by dave's standards. things he wishes he'd never admitted to: wanting to live with dirk, not trusting dirk, being jealous of rin re: karkat when they weren't anything other than good friends, not wanting people to touch him though at least he thinks he didn't mind telling that to rose and jade, some of the bro shit he'd ended up telling dirk, admitting to ever wanting to go public to karkat, the part where he wasn't sure bro didn't have his reasons for hating dave.
it's the last one that makes his breath catch as he looks over, and after a second he reaches out to drag down the hand nearest to him. it's still awkward when he grips it, but it's easier if he's initiating it. ]
We can work on the food thing. [ should have been anyway, probably, but dave had never given it any thought in general. ] I want to work on the - touch thing again.
[ tangible things he can share, like some sort of peace offering. ]
Those are things I want. [ well kind of he's still "but does this ping control issues for dirk and is it fair at all it's probably not fair shit" re the food issue but. ] And I've said them to you, so - see?
[ just maybe let the rest of it go. ]