In one case it's something to the tune of "be distraught that the person you care for most in the world is on the verge of death and make a series of escapism-seeking impulse life choices as a result of that".
I wouldn't advise trying to replicate the scenario.
ok yeah maybe a hard pass on that one although it does sound like my style my methodology has historically been recognizing my feelings and then like suppressing them forever until and unless someone else goes hey im into you
it varies it used to lean more towards just not wanting to bug them or rock the boat since typically ive gotten crushes on people im good friends with which makes it like well the friendship is more important than upsetting the table you know
nowadays i guess it also has to do with not being sure id be a great romantic option in general
You know, I'm not saying this is the case with any certainty, but it's possible that your good friends felt the same way as you were, but assumed that your adherence to the friendship meant you were the one uninterested.
This isn't advice, mind. Just an observation, coming from someone who's learned that lesson the hard way a few times myself.
What makes you think you're less than satisfactory, romantically?
[ tbh he's just like "maybe too broken atm, uh" with every new memory of bullshit, but ]
i have been told i am frustrating sometimes with a disinclination to share things and im not sure that inclination would like be lifted just bc i wanted to kiss someone
nah i just meant what you said was romantic not towards me really but just it was a thing that someone with that kind of mindset would say like well you know what i mean
obviously i cant confess to you when our names cant smash together its not fate
If we were fast approaching being a Thing and I was trying to convince you to bring down your high and vaulted walls? Of course. I always have had a bit of a flair for the poetic.
If you really loved me you'd consider changing your name for me, you realize.
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I wouldn't advise trying to replicate the scenario.
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my methodology has historically been recognizing my feelings and then like
suppressing them forever until and unless someone else goes hey im into you
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What is it that makes you choose to suppress them? Just not wanting to deal with them? Not wanting to be rejected? Something else?
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it used to lean more towards just not wanting to bug them
or rock the boat
since typically ive gotten crushes on people im good friends with
which makes it like
well the friendship is more important than upsetting the table you know
nowadays i guess it also has to do with not being sure id be a great romantic option in general
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This isn't advice, mind. Just an observation, coming from someone who's learned that lesson the hard way a few times myself.
What makes you think you're less than satisfactory, romantically?
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i have been told i am frustrating sometimes with a disinclination to share things
and im not sure that inclination would like be lifted just bc i wanted to kiss someone
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Maybe you just need the irresistible force to your immovable object.
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You're not entertaining notions of confessing to me, are you?
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i just meant what you said was romantic
not towards me really
but just it was a thing that someone with that kind of mindset would say
like
well you know what i mean
obviously i cant confess to you when our names cant smash together
its not fate
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If you really loved me you'd consider changing your name for me, you realize.
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im a complete pushover for people i love in any category
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