Because he did hate me, and it was...my fault. I mean, I...holy fuck, I'm just. Not a good person, Vi. I've tried to be. But all I've managed to do is hurt people, and I can't...make myself trust him. I can't. And it's stupid, and I'm sorry, but - I can't be the person I'm supposed to be.

[ because he's too twisted and broken and he caused his entire fucking life, and somehow for a while there on the meteor he'd started to think maybe he hadn't.

now he knows better. ]