At first, I did. I don't need to... see everything everyone else does, but it can be hard to relate sometimes? To... know what to say. [ It also gets a little lonely. ]

I thought it would be easier to help if I were more like everyone else, but... I think we can all help one way or another, no matter what our memories are like. It's about what we can do now, with what we know now, not about what we did once upon a time. That once upon a time should help us be who we are now.

[ That's what she's trying to think, what she's trying to believe. She doesn't want to reject their reality (both realities). It's the way she thinks will bring the most comfort, if not the most happiness. ]