...Yeah. I ran without runnin' back at the start of the year, with Jade. I guess that is what you would call it? When you're around someone but you just back off and don't engage because you forget how to.

[ but he'd also been juggling remembering dying and not being used to it, and remembering killing and not being used to that - ]

You know, it's not just gettin' shit back. Like. I was, before all of this, a little more open, I guess? But not really...open. Like, it's not like I told everyone everything. But I used to think there wasn't a problem in the world my older siblings couldn't fix for me, or with me, and it felt like...security. I think it's how you felt about your dad, when we were kids together. That safety net you never thought about, because it was intrinsic.

[ a shrug. ]

But then suddenly it wasn't, because there are bigger problems in the universe than three people.